Remember

Are we running in circle each time we meet someone new to fall in love with? Does we ever love even though the previous relationship doesn't work out? Maybe love is love no matter with who we experience it with. 

Love, a word that is easy to say and read, but is it easy to show? Is it easy to keep? Maybe the word love makes us running in circle with no end, since there's no ending point in a circle. I have a burning desire to understand how love really works between humans. Questions upon questions on how it start in a human heart. Even though I understand the love that a soul inhabit, I know a soul loves unconditionally, no matter who or what, it will never ask another soul to give what they can't give. A soul have no doubt or fear that it will never be loved, because it knows that God's love are the evident in why it was born from the first place. While human relationship is full of doubt and compromises. Human relationship start with; If I give my heart to you, I expect you to behave in a certain way so that I can be happy. It's full of conditions and attachment, while the soul love without conditions and no attachment to another soul. 

I want to remember how it is to love as a soul and not as a body with full of fear and uncertainty. Why is that human love has so many limits? Most relationship start with butterflies in the tummy and end with bitterness and even hate for another. Why is that they say they stop to love when a relationship ends? Don't they know that they have always loved, because they are not just a body, they are the soul. A soul loves endlessly, some humans are lucky, because they remember that they are souls and not just a body. That's why they can love endlessly without ceasing to stop for a moment when they know that the other have to return to another realm of reality. 

The illusion of separation in this world is sometimes too real, so real that people are afraid they will lost another if they can't keep them in their life or relationship. I have experience that feeling, I was once in that illusion and thought it was the reality, but I have experience unconditional love, the truest form of love is to freely be who I am. I don't mean personality, I mean being the love that I am, in truth we don't need words to justify ourselves to another, we only need to recognize the love that we are and give ourselves the privilege to be loved by God, a divine force of love. It encircled inside our heart, but sometime we are to hung up with the illusion that we forget to really feel the truth in our heart. 

Humanity must remember that they are soul in a journey to remember who they really are so that they can experience the love that they are. The whole univers is dwelling inside them, why can't they be happy without materials things and see the illusion for illusion?

I AM, LOVE. 

Blessings

Miracle 

Love

I want to talk less and listen more, I want to live instead of thinking, I want to make mistake so that I can learn, and most of all, I want to love with every ounce of my bones. 

I was in love so many times, but never knew that love was more than just falling in love, until I met her. To this day I still love her like I did back then. I was falling in love with her, and I could never experience such strong feelings for anyone than I felt for her. Just the thought of her being with someone else could bring tears to my eyes and pain in my heart. It was difficult each time we part, but still I couldn't hate her for "hurting" me, which she never did. She only brought the pain I had inside me so I could see it and release it, even though I have been "hurt" so many times, but really, it wasn't them who hurt me, the only thing that hurt me was my expectations of how things would be, it was all in my head. 

It was them and then it was her, and now it's only me. Yes, this time around I'm dedicating my love to myself. It's necessary for me to love myself, so that I can love anyone else. I want to feel that what they give me is enough, so that I could recognize their love behind their actions and behavior. I don't want to trust the words alone, but all that they give by their actions. I don't want to sit with my insecurities and doubt. I don't want to be blinded by fears, with eyes that see but couldn't feel. I want to see with my heart and feel with my soul. I want it, I desire it, it's the living force that fuel me to dream bigger, and now, desire must drop, and wanting must detach itself from my being, I must be one with my heart and soul. I must keep this promise close to my heart, that whatever that happens to me is an opportunity to grow and evolve. 

After all, all this was love and has always been love.

My Imagination

I'm dreaming, to steal glances at you while you sit beside me, then I will reach out my hand to touch your. I will hold it in my hand and look into your eyes before I lay a gently soft kiss on your lips. We may be world apart, but still my heart is at your place since my mind seems to wander of to where you are. 

Imagining that the world stand still for a moment when our lips meet for the first time, the world is just a blur when we both are together. We might can't stop time, but being with you in that moment will last an eternity. And I might not be satisfied with just an eternity, because being away from you make my heart longing to see you again, but still I'll cherish that moment where I pine and yearn after to hold you in my arms. 

The clock is ticking away my yearning, my heart beats rhythmically to your heart beats, and my soul dance such a feverish dance by the thoughts of you. Think how it would be like if this become our reality, while in my mind it's already so real as it could be.

Love Is What You Are

Every now and then I think about leaving my house to go somewhere, I end up staying at home. It’s a comfy place I would not leave because all the memories about home made me feel alive. I don’t say that I never got out of this place, not because I wouldn’t but because there’re so many other memories attached all around the city that made me crave to feel happier. The happiest place for me now is my bed. I sleep there. And I love to sleep. But there’re of course many other things that I love as well. For example a long walk by myself or conversations over a cup of coffee with my best friend. Wherever I go I leave a mark, the marks that will attached to my heart and soul so I will never forget how I end up living at home with my family.

All my life I have been wandering around trying to seek for true love, the search went far and I haven’t found that yet. But after going through some major crisis in life I figure out that true love is something you are not something you find.

Wanted

She is somewhere around the corner. Perhaps near the edge of the world. She might be waiting or rushing through the day free like a bird. I would like to know what she is doing and all the most what hides in her mind. I want to look through her eyes and see what she see. I want to feel with her heart so it can touch my soul. I want too much, but my desire shattered like glas hitting the floor. If you crack my heart open, you will see longing drips like tear drops and fills the river with loneliness. 

She is somewhere, so close but yet so far holding the key to the magic door to my heart. 

In Deep Silence

Dear Beloved,

In silence, deep silence, I hear your whispering voice calling out to me. I waited and waited, long and longer for the night to end and the day to pass so I might see you again. You have appeared before me countless of time in my dreams. You’re just like a reflection in my heart where you will never disappear. I couldn’t find words enough to describe how magnificent you are to me. Even if I write it down or sing it out, it will not be the same as the image I have of you inside my mind. Your image emerge before my eyes every time I close it, and you burn as a candle in my soul. My soul takes fire because of you, and no river or ocean can demolish it. My burning desire takes root inside my heart where no one can pull it out.

I’m the river and you the ocean, we are link to each other, because river stream will always flow out to the ocean, like boat takes sail in the sea and finally have to come back to shore. You pull me out of my hallucination and created reality in my dreams. I emerge myself in your reality, and finally found myself lost in myriad of dreams with you. I don’t want to be awake nor asleep, but staying watchful of my imaginations about you so I’ll never forget how sweet your face looks like. In the meeting with you, I begins to build a castle inside my heart. This place will never gets old or worn out, even if you takes your leave and disappear for a while. My heart is your home and your soul is my temple, even if I gets lonely and homeless in reality, I’ll bow before your temple and smile, your kindness bear witness to the brilliant home I’ve build for myself below the azure sky; everywhere I go is home, and I know I can take shelter in your temple. This is the truth of the truth I shared with you.

Sweet Melody

Because of you I had tasted euphoria,
in my tears there were happiness.
You bring so much joy into my life
and to loose you I have known bitterness.

Sweet surrender,
you have come to release me from
my haunting past.
Every moment I think of you,
I savor it in my heart.

Your beauty are as the bright sun
blinding my eyes.
To know you is to know love
and love is a desire
which I secretly keep inside my soul.

I promise myself
to never let those sweet memories
to fade away;
it’s something to remember
and dream of every single day.

Fire burns down the walls
I build to keep me safe.
Strange is love that makes me sway.
Just with a wiff of air
my kisses are blowing away
with the wind that convey my vows.

I will love you until my last breath,
when time cease to exist
and the world stop moving.
My vow is beyond eternity
far greater than the universe;
because you have brought heaven to my home.

Let’s mend together and be inseparable -
like the air we are breathing.
Death is nothing to fear,
because we are as one in this lifetime.
Let joy be our song -
and love our melody.

Love Has Brought Me Home

I fell apart to be mend a new
Look deep within the heart, raging war subside
Love is the last call

I call love by its name
Releasing me from the aching pain
Wind chime sings
By a gentle push of the summer breeze, mindful
All doors are open for me to get through -
One into the heart another into the soul.

Within a beating heart, truth recall
Nothing can bend or break the divine glory of a soul
Beyond the universe
Millions of stars are shining
One shines for all, all shines for one,
Love has guide me home to where I truly belong

Look deep within the heart, raging war subside
Love has finally brought me home.