New Year's Resolution.

Hi everyone, so I just sit here one day before new year's eve, thinking that I could jot down some of my new years resolution just so I will remember it before the year 2015 end. 

First and foremost, I want to quit smoking (sadly I haven't manage to quit yet). What I think to do is to contact my doctor and see if she could help me. And the second thing is; I want to stay sober the whole year without touching a single drop of alcohol. I'm not an alcoholic or addicted to alcohol, it's just that I'm not so fond of partying and drinking anymore, so it's not a problem to quit, but maybe I have to explain to a few people on why I don't want to drink anymore. Let's see how it goes. 

I think I will be a better person by the end of 2016, since I want to love myself more. Self love is as I said very important if you want to stay happy. I will do my best to not criticize myself for things I can't do and even if I caught myself in condemning people for what they do, I will not condemn myself for it. I'm not saying that it's OK to condemn people, but I mean, everyone of us have in some time judge people for what they do or say etc, it's kind of normal to think that way, but it could be prevented if we understand ourselves better and that we see people with our heart and not our ego, better yet, as a soul seeing another soul.

I will do my best to socialize with positive people, and help those who are depress and pessimistic (not sure if they want help, but if anyone that comes to me, I will make sure they leave happier.) I have been told that I'm a good listener, that my friends really find comfort in what I share. They mean it makes them feel at ease when they talk to me about theirs problems. I'm more of a person who find solution to a problem rather than pitying myself and play the victim for my problems and situations, therefor I will find a solution for my friends if they needs me to help them with their problems and see things with new eyes. 

I want to be more honest, not in a brutal way, but I will do my best to tell the truth as I see it and not what people want to hear. Honesty is the best policy. It's hard not to tell white lies, but it's not impossible to be completely honest about something. 

Last but not least, I want to keep my conscious clean, I want to vibrate in a higher frequency. I feel 2016 will be an exciting year. 2nd wave of ascension is on march 2016. So I have to prepared myself for that time so I can help more people to elevate their frequency. It's hard enough right now for most people to deal with their emotions. Seems like more and more people are awaken. It could be terrifying for them to suddenly feel different than what they use to feel. 

Looking back I have been experience a lot of up and downs, but it just helped me seeing things in a different perspective. I have learn to listen to my feelings, love a little more, stay positive and become happier with the choice I make. And all my connection with people have brought me to a higher level of understanding. I think I'm equipped to bring light to the world, and help levitate the frequency of unconditional love. All I'm waiting now is for my Twin Flame to come back into my life and help me to help bring more love and light to the earth and its inhabitant. 

New life will begin shortly... might as well begin now. 

The list: 

1) Quit smoking

2) Quit drinking alcohol

3) Self Love

4) Be more honest

5) Help people

6) Socialize with positive people

7) Declutter and vibrate on a higher frequency

Stay tune for more to come. I really want to share my experience with everyone who cross my path. If you have similar experience or anything you want to share, I'm ready to listen! 

Blessings.

Miracle

An Ongoing Process

As we go through darkness and become more positive, and suddenly there seems to be more shit coming up than ever- don't be afraid if it does. Because they have to come up in order for you to shed more light on it, things need to clear out, and they need to be acknowledge. 

The process of loving yourself is ongoing, there are no shortcuts, you have to do the work in order to be more happy in life. It's your responsibility anyway, to feel happy and content. I'm so glad that my words of comfort and advice can help you, but believe it or not, I have been through deep shit and now I'm able to finally be more happy about myself and content in some degree. Sure there are things that bugged me and made my day a living hell, but that is something temporarily, and natural, because like a pendulum, our lives swayed from right to left, as a ball been throwing up needs to come down. Our feelings are reflection of our thoughts, the things that bugged me are things that help me to measure how far I have climb the ladder. How far in life I have come. 

When you give a negative thought your attention, remember that you are able to switch it to a positive thought, because if you are able to give your thoughts your attention, it means you are more aware of what you think and when you are more aware of what you think, then it's easier for you to choose a better thought. If you struggle with that, then I can recommend you to seek out Louise L Hay, she has a lot of good affirmations you can use to change your negative thoughts to better and positive one.

Time is speeding up and the energy is increasing in frequency, things are likely to manifest faster. So it's up to you what you want to manifest. I do understand that it's not always easy to suddenly change your mindset, it takes me years before I can master it, and still I'm puzzled about it, because sometimes I feel that I'm in need of love and acceptance from the one I love. It's not easy to just be happy when you actually want things to be in some sort of way for your own benefit, but you can't always have what you want, so there are of course disappointment in it. You have to learn to forgive yourself when you are angry about yourself because you don't feel the way you think you should. Sometimes it's ok to feel what you feel. Express your feelings and don't blame yourself and even if you do, don't criticize yourself for it. Don't judge yourself and think you are a bad person for feeling in some certain way because you are afraid people won't accept or love you for reacting or expressing how you are feeling. 

I do understand it's hard to explain sometimes why you feel the way you feel, but if you don't let out the steam, you will feel more horrible, because then you are locked inside a box you aren't able to get out of. I think it's more healthy to express your emotions/feelings than locked them inside, if you aren't able to tell the person who you have some sort of problems with, then you can try and talk about it with your friends or someone you know who is a good listener, some who doesn't judge what you have to tell, maybe they can give you another perspective you can look at so you won't be stuck in one way of thinking. There are many way of releasing those emotions, you just need to find a way that suits you the best. 

For me, it helps to cry and write about it, or talking to my bestfriend who I know won't judge me for the way I'm feeling or thinking. She would tell me what I need to hear and be honest about it. I'm thankful for having her as my bestfriend. I think we all need one or two friends who is loyal to us and treat us with respect and don't judge us for being who we are. But to have those kind of friends we also need to be somewhat like that in order to attract them in our lives and we need to be a bestfriend for ourselves too, so that we can have a better and healthier relationship with ourselves. 

I know sometimes you might think it's stupid for what you feel, but if someone talk about those feelings to you, would you think that they are stupid? Try to see and comfort yourself as your bestfriend would or better yet, see yourself as God sees you, He will likely see you as the innocent child of His. We all needs to see each other as souls, in order to maintain peace and harmony, that sometimes things happen for a reason, and we all do our best from the abilities we have. People don't always know why they are saying or doing what seems to harm others, forgive them, they know not what they do. Forgive yourself, for in God's eyes you are pure and innocent soul who are going through an evolution. 

Take what you can from this post, but leave whatever that doesn't seems right for you, I don't intend to preach, because I don't think preaching will do any good if it doesn't come from the heart. Mostly, believe in yourself rather than believing in a truth that has been experienced by someone else. Sometimes experiences are somewhat different because we all have different perceptions and we all have different truth about something we believe in. Next time, if I have the inspiration, I will try and write about beliefs. Meanwhile, have a splendid weekend. 

Blessings

Miracle. 

Accept Yourself Is To Love Yourself

After being in love for countless of times, I figured out that I have been suppressing my feelings and they have become heavy emotions that was hard to control. Every time something trigger my emotions I couldn't help but cry about it. Even though tears are remedy to release those emotions I still couldn't love myself, because I loathed the way I suppress my feelings, I hate that I couldn't express them in a positive manner since I tended to push everyone away. All I could do then was to sit alone crying in a corner and felt like I was the victim of the situations. The consequence of my action was loneliness and self loath.

After my wake-up call, and many years later I become more aware of the way I treat myself. It took me a decade to understand that loving myself wasn't about loving others the way I want them to love me. Loving myself was to actually just loving myself and not wanting for acceptance or love in return. I'm not being a narcissist, I'm reasonable, I do give love and concern when my friend and family needs me to listen to them, but I don't let them misuse my trust or kindness. Being kind is not a sign of weakness, but to respect all with the same amount of respect to myself.

I understand that when someone come to me with a problem or sadness, it's not because they want me to help them solve their problems, but to love them unconditionally and accept them for what they bring with their problems. I'm aware that they want me to love and accept their emotions no matter what feelings they might bring forth in the conversations.

I develop a strategi to help them get through their dark time by being attentive with what they have to tell me. As I help by listening I also develop a sense of detachment. I detach myself from their problem and never let it surpass my faith of letting them solve their own problems. Everyone needs to learn how to trust themselves and how to face their problems as it is their life and what they want to do is important for them to understand themselves better. What they need isn't a problem solver, but compassion and kindness from their fellow humanity.

I do deem myself as a lover, a friend, a family for those who come in contact with me. Because being a family for someone who needs my time is something humanity needs right now at this particular time, but I don't mean that I will give away my time if someone is to waste it. Even though I don't judge people for what they do and say, but I do care for how they treat me, because I can't afford to loose my self-respect by letting them toy with me by being careless of how they treat me. I am after all  a human being as well, I do have my ups and downs, but I'm better at handle my emotions and feelings now than before. I can say that I love myself more than I use to.

So how do you love yourself? First we have to look into the way we love other, what kind of love do you want for yourself, is how you love yourself and that's how you will love other. Love can range from unconditional to conditional. The type of love I want for myself is unconditional, it means that I want the one I love to give me the freedom of being myself and let me express my feelings without being judge. Unconditional love is rare and most difficult to attain since we are programmed to think that if someone love us, they have to meet up with our expectations. While unconditional love is more unexpected. Unconditional love is to give without asking, wanting and expecting for it to be returned. Unconditional love is to be selfless, while attaining the desire to be loved back with the same amount without being disappointed. What I mean is the desire to be loved back is also important while loving someone, but that desire is not negative, because in this world, self-love has been something very rare which we don't experience in another human being. So to love someone we must love ourselves.

While we desire that love to meet up with our expectations we have to detach ourselves from the petty desire of being love back, and that's how divine love is in action. That's were unconditional love come into play. Second, loving ourselves, is to love our emotions, our being, our negatives side as our positive one. Loving ourselves is to love our way of being a human being with flaws and mistakes. We have to love ourselves without judging the way we are. It could be difficult if we don't forget what we have been taught in our childhood. That love must be earned by doing good deeds, running errands and behave in a certain way. Our parents taught us to be obedient, to listen to their requests and sometimes even punish us if we don't do as they said or give them what they needed, no matte what it was, sometimes we felt that it was never enough no matter how much we tried to please them and from then our love has been restricted and twisted, so when we meet someone we love, we apply the same rules. In our subconscious we still give the people we love an ultimatum, they have to meet up with our standar even though we accidentally love them without being conscious about it. After awhile we might unconsciously love them because they behave in a certain way, but when they don't meet up with up with our standar, we become angry, sad, depress and agitated. We loose our natural state of love, and that is to love unconditionally. We might choke them with our emotions and in the end if things go bad, they even run away from us because they feel they lost their freedom or couldn't handle the intense atmosphere. They might even feel that we have changed; we wasn't the same person they first met and fell in love with.

What I want you to understand is that self-love is the only love you can give yourself so you won't feel unloved once someone doesn't behave the way they use to or how you want them to behave. Self-love is the only real love you can give yourself so you won't suffer from a heartbreak, even though is saddening to loose someone. I remember this quote that fit perfectly in this post; You have to love yourself because no amount of love from others is sufficient to fill the yearning that your soul requires from you.

Self-love and detachment from the person you love is the best remedy to not loose your self-respect or self-love, because once you detach from the person you love you won't feel the lost when things doesn't stick together. If you can't detach yourself from the one you love, then try at least to detach yourself from the situations, maybe an argument or something like being right. Whatever you choose, I hope you will find that kind of love that you want to be efficient in your life. And most important, accept yourself for who you are, that's the true love you can give yourself and everyone else.

Blessings
Mircale

The Approach By My Higher Self, A Way To Enter The Soul.

Tonight I decide to write something new. My life has take a turn, now I'm able to live a life without any worry for money, and from today onwards I will do my best to love myself more. I'm not saying that I have become rich, because of some personal reason I don't need to work anymore. Thanks to the well fare system here in Norway.

5 years ago my life was turned upside down. The approach from my higher self change my whole life completely. My "wake-up call" was activated, and it was quite dramatic and abrupt. Somehow I was ready to take on the mission and ascend to the 4D vibration and even now 5D vibration. That whole week I was rather emotional and could cry over the lost Mother Earth felt about herself, just by reading a channeling from Her. That week I felt like writing, but never knew that what I wrote was a channeling from my higher self and my guides from the above. It was completely amazing week. I was so in tune with the universe and I started to be more emphatic. 

I encountered many lovely souls who helped me to translate most of my channeling from Norwegian to English, and one particular night, I felt my kundalini rose while reading an article regarding the spiritual path, my spine felt warmth and tinge ling, it wasn't uncomfortable hot, but a nice warm feeling rose from the bottom of my spine and up to my neck. I have read about kundalini, and believe that mine was activated that night.

Everything I felt and wrote was so touching, and my higher self wanted to make sure that I know about my true identity, the whole team of my spirits guides was always with me, even during that time and they wanted me to ascend. It was hard to remember my identity, but at last I made it, but before I understand what it means to love myself, I went through a lot of heart ache, pain and suffering. That day I cried my lungs out and couldn't stop. It was so intense. 

When I lied there on my bed that night, I had the feeling that my soul was being dragged out of my body, and in my head I heard several voices cheering me on. They wanted me to ascend so much, but I had to do it myself, I had to remember who I was.. (or am) ..anyway, after feeling that my lips went dry and my soul dragged out one or twice I felt that I was upset, so I stand up, and started to speak loudly, I spoke to those voices I heard in my head. I was so determined and angry about everything that I have been through. I spoke to them with authority and didn't intend to go back to the old ways. 

After being so emotionally drained, I lied down again and suddenly I heard a sweet voice, it's like my twin flame talking to me, but actually it was my higher self. She asked me to love myself, but I didn't knew what it really means to love myself, I thought love means to have sex, but that wasn't the case, love has nothing to do with sex. And then I suddenly remember who I was when I said to myself these words "Crystallize butterfly, butterfly crystallize." The true meaning behind those words was that I'm a crystallize butterfly. It was my identity, even though my higher self jokingly said that I tend to forget, I felt this love for myself truly. I was this forgetful crystallize butterfly who likes to rhyme and write poetry. 

To remember my true soul was amazing! I cried happy tears and couldn't stop myself from smiling. And because of this happening, the activation of my "wake-up call" had made me to be a schizofrenic paranoia in the eyes of those we call doctors and therapist. They claimed that I was sick and in need of medication. I was actually reluctant to be drugged down and got sad because what I went through has become something they mean was unreal. But in the end, I succumb to their opinion about me and started to use medication. And I still use them till now. It was meant to subside my symptoms and stop the psychosis they said. Unwilling to take those medication, I had to put my ego aside and let them treat me. Maybe I need those drugs to be grounded, so whatever it was, I had to go through with the plans my higher self has made for me. 

Beside from that label, another problems arose. An idiotic phobia called phagophobia has made it hard for me this few years. Phagophobia; Fear of swallowing. Yes, I'm afraid to swallow solid foods, and always had to choose foods that is fluid, I can drink water and other beverages just fine, and I also drink nutrition shake (an energy drink). For those thing I can swallow just fine. After awhile for not eating properly, I started to loose weight. Loving myself then wasn't easy, because I got so frustrated and on the verge of given up, but my doctor and therapist always encourage me to eat soup and drink nutrition shake so that I don't loose energy. I did as they told me, and let things solve out themselves, that I might one day eat properly again. 

The bad news is that I'm still afraid to swallow solid foods and haven't gain a bit of weight at all, but the good news is because of this silly "illness" and phobia I can now rest and live a free life without having to worry about my income. I'm glad I live in Norway, and I think this was also planned out by my higher self. I just hope to get on with my mission as soon as possible, but in the mean time, I will do my best to love myself more so that I can vibrate in 5D unconditional love. 

I want to help the world, I want to bring more light and positivity and love to this world. This blog is a way to start spreading the good news about ascension and I want to also enter my Soul by loving myself. I hope you also start to love yourself more than you already do, because you can never love yourself enough... be extravagant about it, just don't become selfish and narcissistic. Otherwise, love yourself truly, I will write more about how I begin to love myself more, maybe it will help giving you an idea on how to love yourself. 

Blessings

Miracle.

Love With All Your Might

To fall in love is magical, but to stay in love is even better. I have seen when people sleep, in that moment I realize that they are so peaceful and innocence. They are in a state where they are completely vulnerable. You would never know what they harbor inside their heart or mind, it could be many different things; lost dreams, broken promises, guilt, shame and much more. And I think people with depression is having their worst nightmare when they are awake with such negatives thoughts; it destroy the tranquility and innocence with just an instant. 

Although they are in depression, but they still have moments where they are happy, joyful, and hopeful. They are not totally lost, but they doesn't know that. Not everything are dark and hollow as they think. You probably have been through it, or know someone who going through it. Whatever that might be, tell them, that their existence count and that they are never alone. Tell them that somewhere someone is waiting to crack their heart open so more light can enter. Someone out there is reaching out their hand, too, and welcome them into their embrace. We all have been upset, sad and broken, so why hide ourselves from each other? 

We all have been "sad-mad", because of our loneliness. We all have been the one who couldn't see the light and felt the emptiness where nothing could fill those hollow spaces. If we have been through it, and walk out alive, why wouldn't we help those who are now going through what we have been through. If we are to tired from walking alone and stumble in the darkness, we need someone who would come and save us by holding up a torch to light up the way so that we can see our path and remind us that we can always look up at the stars when it's dark. 

There are so many wonderful people out there who can motivate us and inspire us to keep going ahead or just slow down so we won't get stress out. I think we all need to remember that we aren't in a race and that we can go on with our own pace. Another thing that is important to remember is that we don't have a reason to love no matter what it is. Don't misunderstand me when I say you should love no matter what it is. If someone has delusion and feel the urge to kill to get a relief, and brain washed to believe that they love to kill, then it might be something they need to seek help for. If you love to do something that would harm yourself then it's delusional, a habit or just something you need to work on. No one is perfect, but there are always room to improve and never to late to start improving yourself.

By improving yourself it's crucial to accept yourself for who you are, by accepting who you are, you can forgive yourself for being imperfect. Forgive yourself for all your faults and all your imperfection. Understand that it will take some time to change, but never believe that you are less than anyone else, because you use a bit longer to change. The time you give yourself is necessary, and it doesn't matter how long it will take, as long as you give yourself permission to heal in the pace you feel it's right for you, I'm sure you will eventually turn your life up-side down and what's is better to finally love the person you are meant to be. 

We all needs love, and who else can love ourselves better than ourselves? As long as you love yourself, you will never feel the lack when someone is doing their best to love you with the ability they have. If someone feels the lack and insecurities with the love you give them, then forgive them, they, too, needs to be reminded that they need to pour more of that self-love into their heart.

Love with all your might, and that will be enough. 

Attachment.

I think we all have something in common. Attachment. Ok, so, maybe not everyone of us, but at least some of us.. If you feel it resonate with yourself that's it. Well, lately I have been thinking. What is actually the feeling when someone suddenly disconnect from us and left us feel lonely and sometimes even worst hurtful? And make us think that we might have done or said something wrong. We questioned ourselves of our abilities of being a human being or being loveable. Why I'm writing about this is because the dark place in my heart have surface during the full moon, and I feel that it has to come up for me to shed some light to it.

The feeling of loneliness when someone disconnect is because we feel attach to them. And attachment isn't a bad thing, but it can rule over us if we don't learn to love the part of us that is yearning to be accepted. I think that I might be able to accept it as it is.  Attachment is a form for connection in this world. When we connect, we get attached to each other, and when suddenly we become disconnected abruptly we tend to feel that there's something missing, and we think that it is love. It could be love, or just the ego trying to control the situation, it doesn't want to lose it identity as a person feeling lonely. It creates a image of love, that we must have that person to be happy, but it fail to make us happy, because we can't own a person with free will, we can't own someone who doesn't belong to us, we can't control the future. Anything could happen.  

So attachment goes in and force us to understand that we need to detach ourself from what we love, so it won't become difficult when the situation isn't in our control. And the feeling of disconnection with a person is only a temporary feelings that will go away when we learn to accept that attachment is not to be feared. Attachment is a call from our soul that what we get attach to is actually something that we cherish and feel important about. That's what I have learned when I feel that I'm attach to this person who gave me lots of attention but now suddenly disconnect from me entirely. 

I must say that this isn't the first time I'm feeling attach to someone. I have gone through it many times and it's still a mystery to me that I haven't learned it. And yeah, when I haven't learned to accept myself fully. When I will feel lonely because someone detached themselves from me I know now that it is because I value that person very much, and I feel that we must have some sort of agreement to meet each other in this life time to help each other with the self love issue. Well, I believe in souls, so I think we have some agreements with our soul mates and twin flame soul mates on how we would meet and how we can do to help the other person to rise up to the feeling of  unconditional love.

It's important to truly accept ourselves as we are, with all the feelings we have. The lessons will continue when we haven't mastered it or learn from it, the same feelings will arise in many different way, but we all learn it bit by bit and go on a pace that's more suited for each one of us. 

So, if you feel attached to someone right now, and they don't feel the same attachment with you, just slowly detached yourself from it and accept the feeling of attachment. You will be much more happy. Value the person, they might have given you the best gift. They have drop a clue for you on how to love yourself more.