I thought the world would end on christmas, but I was wrong. The day still goes on without a single care of what we might think of it. And no matter what I do, time just wont seems to stop. We - I’m still here. Living this unforfilling life. I bet the teacher don’t even care that I quit classes, what about my classmates? I guess they don’t even recognize me being their classmate at all. Honestly, I don’t seems to care anymore. I wouldn’t mind living or keep going with my life. I’m just like the rest of the people continuing on living like nothing happened. I still have to take injections, still have to wake up, eat, sleep and do my chores like I used to. My search for the truth slowly die out and I don’t even care for the answer anymore. I just want to live a peaceful life. Not just that, but I wish I wasn’t such a coward. A coward that doesn’t give a damn about how my life is going to be like. A coward that doesn’t make a change for myself or not giving enough effort to be a better human. I guess, I’m just being cynic about life and its contains. I just want it all to stop, just stop for a moment so I can catch my breath. I wonder if there’s someone out there who is waiting for me to walk by them, and make it all go away with a single touch. Yes, just a touch that would melt my heart and heat up the frost that lies in there.
Time is so cruel when it’s slowly ticking away when I want it to move faster, and it’s playing a trick on me, when I want it to slow down it’s moving faster. It doesn’t co-operate with me at all, that just makes it harder and frustrating - unbearable. But still, I have to continue relying on it to keep me going. I wonder who is out there. Who is waiting. Watching and admiring me. Who will?
