Love

I want to talk less and listen more, I want to live instead of thinking, I want to make mistake so that I can learn, and most of all, I want to love with every ounce of my bones. 

I was in love so many times, but never knew that love was more than just falling in love, until I met her. To this day I still love her like I did back then. I was falling in love with her, and I could never experience such strong feelings for anyone than I felt for her. Just the thought of her being with someone else could bring tears to my eyes and pain in my heart. It was difficult each time we part, but still I couldn't hate her for "hurting" me, which she never did. She only brought the pain I had inside me so I could see it and release it, even though I have been "hurt" so many times, but really, it wasn't them who hurt me, the only thing that hurt me was my expectations of how things would be, it was all in my head. 

It was them and then it was her, and now it's only me. Yes, this time around I'm dedicating my love to myself. It's necessary for me to love myself, so that I can love anyone else. I want to feel that what they give me is enough, so that I could recognize their love behind their actions and behavior. I don't want to trust the words alone, but all that they give by their actions. I don't want to sit with my insecurities and doubt. I don't want to be blinded by fears, with eyes that see but couldn't feel. I want to see with my heart and feel with my soul. I want it, I desire it, it's the living force that fuel me to dream bigger, and now, desire must drop, and wanting must detach itself from my being, I must be one with my heart and soul. I must keep this promise close to my heart, that whatever that happens to me is an opportunity to grow and evolve. 

After all, all this was love and has always been love.

From The Same Source

Somewhere I belong to the desert land, anywhere else I can't find the thirst to understand what love is. If I lost myself and my heart, I'll not bow down and feel defeated but stay strong and keep faith. Look at the sky, many clouds could go awry in a blink of an eye, make raindrops fall heavily down the earth, but still, the sky stay the same.

Who can be sure of what tomorrow might bring, and who would understand that the heart which never betray the soul will be cheated by the mind to believe that eternity is finite. Ego speaks the language of the mischievous devil, while the spirit keep silence because it knows that there is no need to prove it existence.

You can find contentment in books and trust that it would not lead your soul astray. Books are old souls written in words, some are for entertaining, some are to guide you through your life and some might not be at all trusting, but in them you will find the knowledge to stand against the enslavement of the Ego.

Even when the universe is boundless and vast you will never get lost, because your soul knows the way back to where you belong. The stars are magically lit up upon your path, don't get frighten by the darkness. All are bound together, even the light and darkness are made from the same source. That's why we are not that different from one another. 

The Place Most People Fail To Notice

I’m at lost for words to describe the way I feel. Usually when my emotions start to make a havoc in my life, I will use words to silence them and make the chaos to subside. But it has been years and years without me even touch the keyboard to write a decent piece of art. I call it art, because that’s what feelings are. They painted your life in most amazing way. You can either thank them or curse them for the upheaval they cost you to feel. You can cry because of them, or you can laugh when you understand how ridiculous they’re sometimes. Usually because of the way you think that created those feelings in the first place. I think if you really listen to your thoughts and shed some lights on them, you will understand that they actually are not at all there to make you feel less than you are. Even though it could feel like that sometimes, the only way to really understand yourself is to actually make time to be alone and sits with your thoughts. Many people fears to be alone because they’re afraid of their own thoughts and how thoughts can make them feel about themselves, but actually when you really make time to be with yourself, you will get to know the person behind your thoughts. You will no longer feel that you are an empty shell with no depths. It could be scary at first when you approach your inner depth, but when you do it many times and start to get to know the real you underneath the surface you will actually be more confident in who you are. 

Sometimes we aren’t conscious about the fact that we are afraid to be alone. We think it’s boredom to be alone and not having anything to do, and when we actually are alone we tried to avoid to listen to our own  thoughts and start finding someone to keep us in company or just getting busy doing something else rather than to hear what we actually think. It took me awhile before I really understand that I have been avoiding the alone time by finding stuff to do, I was always busy finding someone to talk with and never really listen to myself and understand why I sometimes felt empty and lonely. 

My childhood wasn’t perfect and there were always time my parents argued and made things difficult for me and my siblings to feel appreciated and loved, so the feeling of emptiness and loneliness stem from that upbringing. I guess most of us have had bad experiences from early on and as we grew up we didn’t learn how to deal with those emotions that made us feel less than we are. I believe that there are many people like me who try their best to search for the love they felt they never had. I also think that the people before me also did embark on that journey to find themselves and the love they so dearly desire. No matter who and in what age, younger or older than me, we both share the same wish. We wish to feel loved and accepted as we are. 

So why is it so important to be alone and listen to our thoughts? Because only when we are conscious about our thoughts pattern can we resolve them in a more positive way instead of letting those thoughts making us fearful and destroy our chance to be happy. Some of the thoughts aren’t really ours to begin with. We might have adopt them from the people near us or from the society and media. We might even pick them up in the supermarket or in crowded place full of people. I have read and heard that thoughts are actually energies. They come in ripples and can expand in multitude ways and from what I know we actually identify ourselves with them thoughts. When we identify ourselves with those thoughts, we think that we are them, and yes, it’s possible that we can be those thoughts, because Buddha once said «We are shaped by our thoughts; we become what we think. When the mind is pure, joy follows like a shadow that never leaves.» 

So how do we purify our minds? I think to purify our minds we must first hear what we actually think in the daily basis. You have probably heard about meditation, if not then I must mention it here, since I have actually practice it for awhile and really benefit from it. My mind become much clearer and I can be more aware of what I think. Meditation is not just sitting at one place. There are multitude way to do it. In this time of age, many are having difficulties getting time to meditate, because usually when you meditate you will have to sit at one place and doing nothing. That’s how you can relax better and not being distract. But I have experience that I can still meditate while washing the dishes or taking a walk. Everything lies in the breathing. For example when you are conscious on your breathing, notice the feeling of touching the water, how your hands washing the dishes, you might do it slow or fast, doesn’t matter how you do it, just be in that moment and feel. Start noticing that everything become silent. Your thoughts are coming in many different forms. Maybe it’s joyful thought, maybe it’s a anxious thought. No matter what thoughts that come, just let them flow by your mind, don’t get attach to them, just listen. When you do it often enough you will understand yourself and your feelings better. 

While we tends to search for peace and happiness outside ourselves we neglect to really go inside of us and listen to our heart. The joy, the happiness and the peace have always been inside our heart. We just fail to notice it. That’s the only true place where we can truly be all that we want to be. What most of us really desire the most is love and peace. That’s what I believe to be true. The true power is not to know everything or attain a lot of knowledge, but to really love everything and attain peace. Maybe I’m wrong to believe that, but I have hope in humanity and faith in God. What He has created is beyond our imagination. The universe is vast and there are galaxies and planets out there that are far more bigger than ours. To be living on this earth are our blessing. Isn’t it amazing that we share this earth with each other throughout many generations and still our species has survived? Our problems are smaller than we think they are. Just take a break from everything and really go deep inside yourself, find some alone time and discover the universe that lies inside your heart. Thoughts are merely energy, and they really shape your reality, so what you think can affect the life you live. The only place most people fail to notice are really their hearts.

Attachment.

I think we all have something in common. Attachment. Ok, so, maybe not everyone of us, but at least some of us.. If you feel it resonate with yourself that's it. Well, lately I have been thinking. What is actually the feeling when someone suddenly disconnect from us and left us feel lonely and sometimes even worst hurtful? And make us think that we might have done or said something wrong. We questioned ourselves of our abilities of being a human being or being loveable. Why I'm writing about this is because the dark place in my heart have surface during the full moon, and I feel that it has to come up for me to shed some light to it.

The feeling of loneliness when someone disconnect is because we feel attach to them. And attachment isn't a bad thing, but it can rule over us if we don't learn to love the part of us that is yearning to be accepted. I think that I might be able to accept it as it is.  Attachment is a form for connection in this world. When we connect, we get attached to each other, and when suddenly we become disconnected abruptly we tend to feel that there's something missing, and we think that it is love. It could be love, or just the ego trying to control the situation, it doesn't want to lose it identity as a person feeling lonely. It creates a image of love, that we must have that person to be happy, but it fail to make us happy, because we can't own a person with free will, we can't own someone who doesn't belong to us, we can't control the future. Anything could happen.  

So attachment goes in and force us to understand that we need to detach ourself from what we love, so it won't become difficult when the situation isn't in our control. And the feeling of disconnection with a person is only a temporary feelings that will go away when we learn to accept that attachment is not to be feared. Attachment is a call from our soul that what we get attach to is actually something that we cherish and feel important about. That's what I have learned when I feel that I'm attach to this person who gave me lots of attention but now suddenly disconnect from me entirely. 

I must say that this isn't the first time I'm feeling attach to someone. I have gone through it many times and it's still a mystery to me that I haven't learned it. And yeah, when I haven't learned to accept myself fully. When I will feel lonely because someone detached themselves from me I know now that it is because I value that person very much, and I feel that we must have some sort of agreement to meet each other in this life time to help each other with the self love issue. Well, I believe in souls, so I think we have some agreements with our soul mates and twin flame soul mates on how we would meet and how we can do to help the other person to rise up to the feeling of  unconditional love.

It's important to truly accept ourselves as we are, with all the feelings we have. The lessons will continue when we haven't mastered it or learn from it, the same feelings will arise in many different way, but we all learn it bit by bit and go on a pace that's more suited for each one of us. 

So, if you feel attached to someone right now, and they don't feel the same attachment with you, just slowly detached yourself from it and accept the feeling of attachment. You will be much more happy. Value the person, they might have given you the best gift. They have drop a clue for you on how to love yourself more. 

The Shimmers

We are as fireflies, glowing and shimmering in the dark in this time of change. Just like what fireflies should do, we are light, being freed by the dark hollow spaces like stars are shining in the vast universe. We are like stars twinkling and brighten up each other and saluting one another into a new galaxy. With that we flow straight into a dimension after another dimension until we lost track of ourselves and try to paw a new way out. We leave traces of stardust just to remember where we come from. Just to not forget where home is.

Home, where should home be, if not the heart. We can always go back to where we belong with a single breath. We must remember that our heart re-connect us to the Universe. We have lived on earth for far too long and nearly forgets how it is to be a soul re-birthed into flesh and bones. We are made of bones and flesh, but that would only be of ashes and dust when we leave this world, so why are we still bugged down with fears and undissolved problems?

Can we not live in harmony with the nature and its glorious sky? Why not laugh and play when we still have time to do so. We can make our desire into reality, if not for the thoughts that hinder us to achieve our goals. Thoughts are strangers that wish to become real friend. Thoughts that creates another hologram want to steal more time from us. How many times have we turn our back away from our heart to feel more safe in this world?

The mind is a powerful device, it creates illusions upon illusions, trying to trapped us inside the prison of hell. It is the illusions of not being good enough, rich enough, enough of everything that this world has to offer. When it is the heart that opens up many door for us to see ourselves as Gods and Goddesses. The heart might make us vulnerable, but it's always wise enough to keep our raging war inside of us to subside - we need and have to let our heart leads us back to our central core, the place where we have enough affection to show towards everything and everyone.

Lets shimmers in the dark, where light has gone off.

Heartbeats

My thumbing heartbeats leave me breathless, the chain between us is unbroken, I can’t cut it even if I want to. Wherever I go, I wind up being beside you. I can’t leave not because I don’t want to, I stay because you unconsciously needs me to be by your side and I automatically stay to catch you whenever you fall.

- Crystallized ƸӜƷ

Source

How lonely can one be in this world, where there’re so many souls trying to find the way back to the source, the place where love is the answer for all thing. Unconditional love is what sustain one from being lonely. Even when one is alone, one is not entirely alone. Because the soul knows the connection to source is infinitely.

- Crystallized ƸӜƷ

Oh Lover

Why oh' why, my lover, have you left me solely to myself?
Why oh' why, my lover, have you abandon me all alone?

Where oh' where should I go now,
Where oh' where should I turn too,

Oh my lover would you ever come back by my side?
I miss you so.

- Crystallized ƸӜƷ

Kiss The Rain

Almighty I am, I might not know much, but I know at least how far my love can reach, it reach through the veils of surrealistic dreams. I hope someday, I might get a chance to prove how much I love in total.

I pull out my heart just to see how many holes there're in it and to my amazement I couldn't find one single hole, but I can see the holes that were torn out has been replaced by another piece of fragment of someone else's heart.

For each passing day, I take a moment to pray for my beloved, I hope her wishes will all come true and her days will be filled with joy.

Right now I'm living in a cocoon, I lavish myself in the sun and hot-floating air of love with my family. I'm truly affected by their affection towards me. They all give me the supportment that I need to grow stronger in my own power to discern what's the best for me and what's not.

Time seems to fly faster than I have expected.... many things seems to change as well. I'm surprised that some bond has been cut off without a single trace of change. We all change in different pace, but we're going in the same direction, the road, the path to live a whole and perfect life. We're going in the same direction back to our source - the central Sun.

What else is there to do than kissing the rain and dancing in the sun, now that I have so much time of my own to reflect and philosophize the rest of the day.

Someone, please give me something to think about.

- Crystallized ƸӜƷ

Sweet Memories

Sometimes I caught myself in deep thoughts. Thoughts about the past. I still remember the sweet memories about young love. My age has override my youth, I'm getting older and see things differently than I used to. Where has that time gone to? I feel like I want to live once again in those sweet magnificent years with my friends.

Right now I'm no longer near them, the gap between us is wider than before since I had moved away from the City, but it is not all bad, I found myself at peace and there's no longer mind chattering that keep me down. I feel so liberated.

I really want to re-live the time where I keep my friends near me, and talk to them from my heart-space sanctuary. I lost some friends, the bond between us is broken, somehow I wish I could retrieve back that time so I can say or do things differently, but that time is over now.. there's no longer possible to undo what I had done and said. We seems to live in different space and time also. All I wish is that they live happily and are in good health.

There's not much to complain about, and I'm not the type to complain. Time changes the heart of mankind, and everyone is reaching a higher consciousness. My work is done for now, I attain the peace I wished for and there's no raging war inside me. Isn't that what we all wish for? I hope most people will find and attain that peace for themselves, just like I did.

Love conquer all. There's no obstacle that love can't defeat. Really, love is the only power to overcome the most obstacles that men are struggling with. I want to keep my faith and sanity, just so I can keep up with the time ahead, at least I know I'm not alone anymore.

The sun is shinning brightly these days, melting away the snow. Spring is here to stay for awhile before summer set in. I'm looking for the laughter of children, playing outside with their friends, and I will reminisce the time I was a kid myself, playing with my friends.

- Crystallized ƸӜƷ

Unchanging

It doesn't matter if the sun never appear or the rain keeps falling. It doesn't matter if the weather keep changing, my love for you will never decrease, the wind may stand still and the leaves on the tree may wither and die, but I will remain as the air you're breathing, that way my love will never change.

- Crystallized ƸӜƷ

Let's Be Playful As Children.

If I was to shine alone, I would shine as bright as I can, so that my dreams won't be dimmed, or be swollen by the mistrust of the mind. I will not loose hope and be in despair to see that this world might turned black and cold endlessly, but I will keep myself open to new possibilities and reach out my hand to people who needs my light.

I'm like a light bulb, been turned on by the love force which encircled around the whole globe at this moment. The universe is my home and I indulge myself in it. I play in the garden of Eden, and gets curious about life. I'm childlike and innocent.

I wonder why would anyone harm a childlike person as I am? I don't understand how the mind can misguide one so much to make one kills or doing harmed to people or even a child. This world needs love, and light, much love is needed to transmute the negativity in the air.

We are one with nature once we are outside, smelling the air and floating with the wind, we're not any different from the trees. We must be rooted to be grounded firmly in the ground, so when the storm comes we would not be uprooted by it but standing firmly on the earth.

Let's reunite with Mother Earth and hers inhabitants. Let's play together in her Garden, let's not chase after the butterflies, but sitting still and let them come and sit on our shoulder. Let's be as children again, playing playfully with each other and shines together into the new heaven on earth.

- Crystallized ƸӜƷ

Being Vulnerable - Unbreakable

Beloved,

I'm moved by the thoughts of love, lovely thoughts embedded in my heart. It keeps me in alignment with the familiar feelings of fresh new sun beams, caressing and cuddling me to awaken to a soft morning. My being is like a flower who needs nourishment and love to flourish.

I might be breakable by the touch of a lover, like a fragile crystal vase when it's broken, it's hard to mend. But my divine heart is not like a crystal vase, it's like a sponge absorbing every last bit of love into itself. Perhaps I can open myself up and let myself be vulnerable to know that I will not be harmed in any way.

Being vulnerable is not at all a bad thing, but if I keep trying to mend my human heart anew I might get hurt by the sharp pieces that were left there on the ground.

- Crystallized ƸӜƷ

A Beacon

Dear Beloved,

Because of my curiosity I've reached the point of true knowledge. Love is my knowledge and freedom is efficacious to my soul. Bad habits seem to fall away by the wayside. I rise yet again to a new morning of glory and meaningful moments embedded in my memories. New memories are like snowflakes melting in my mind and they're stored like healing water inside my heart where happy tears joined together to create a healing river through my eyes.

I understand how wonderful life is when everything flows easily without me trying to control my own fate. Fate is my life and this too goes hand in hand. I created my life just the way I want, with light and love. My life is one with all lives. One with nature, one with small creatures as tiny as a bug.

Butterfly lives for short while, but in a significant way. They created harmony in the nature and leaves traces of fairy dust wherever they fly. We are like the butterflies, but we haven't seen ourselves as butterflies, because we're still frightened of our transformation from a caterpillar to a butterfly. We must first accumulated lots of healing energy to create a cocoon to feel protected before we can see our own transformation being transmuted from fear to love. We are the butterflies, and there are no reasons to reject the thoughts of fear.

Fear is only a wayshower, it gives us more insight on how to choose a better life once we see it for what it is; it acts only as a barrier to secure us from harming ourselves. Why would we want to harm ourselves when we know that love is behind our fear making sure that we won't be harmed by false ideas about ourselves. Love is surely within our heart, it is our divinity we are protecting with our strength.

We don't need fear to create more havoc in our lives, but to gently move it away from the wayside. Fear is like the potholes we see on our path, and when we see it, we rather choose to walk around it than falling into it. Because love will make sure that we will follow our path with ease and joy. It whispers sweet wisdom into our ears. We must be silence and listen well before we take another step further along the road. We will not fall if we were to be guided by our own heart. Love will make us meager but not at all weak, because it's our strength we are carrying within us.

Love are we, we are love. Then fear is nothing great to be feared, because love is far greater than any emotion. It's more than emotion alone, it's fuel to drive our souls further into the higher realms. If we wait long enough to let love talk through our hearts, we will be enlightened and more in tune with the universe. Love is what sustains us, it takes one barrier at a time away from our hearts. We had built enough walls and isolated ourselves long enough. It's time to leap through the fence of ignorance and arrogance and be as a beacon to enlighten our next generation. We are adequate enough to live a momentous life of our own. They're worth all the effort we are here to make; Heaven on Earth.

- Crystallized ƸӜƷ

Jeg Elsker Deg

Kjære Elskede,

Jeg surfer på kjærlighetsbølgene inn i ditt hjerte min elskede, for selv om jeg ikke kan svømme, og bølgene er store, vil jeg fortsatt står med stødig bein på bølgene. Jeg vil la den ene bølgen etter den andre bringe meg nærmere deg.

Kjærlighet er det jeg har og kjærlighet er det jeg gir. Jeg ønsker ikke å gjøre noe annet enn å be, be for ditt velvære og din trygghet. Jeg drømmer ikke mye enn å bringe fred til verden og lykke til mine søster og brødrer. Drømmen kan være uvirkelig, men virkelig nok til å realiseres. Alt jeg har igjen er bare noen få ord, ord som kan beskrive det jeg føler, men tre ord er nok for å kunne beskrive kjærligheten; Jeg elsker deg.

Men vet vi egentlig hva "jeg elsker deg" bety? Det er så lett å si ordene, men er det lett å følge den? Hvorfor har det vært slik at vi slutter å elske etter en stund når forholdet går dårlig? Det er kanskje ikke kjæresten vår vi har elsket, men følelsen av å være forelsket? Vi slutter aldri å elske, selv om forholdet kan ta en slutt. Kanskje det er oss selv vi bør elske først slik at vi kan gi mer mening til de tre ordene "jeg elsker deg"

Jeg mener fremdeles at ubetinget kjærlighet varer evig og det er den som er ekte. Hva annet ville vi gjøre hvis vi ikke elske oss selv først? Vi vil visstnok elsker et annet menneske også, men vi må først være ærlig med oss selv om den kjærligheten vi gir er rent og ekte. Og ikke er betinget med at den andre skal forandre seg enn da vi først møte dem. Da kunne vi like godt ha funnet vært sammen med et annet menneske som er akkurat slik vi vil at de skal være.

Vi kan ikke forlange våre elskede å elske oss ved å prosjisere vår frykt på ham/henne. De har nok med deres egne. Men det vi prosjisere er det vi må lære å elske i oss selv. For det vi ser utenfor oss, er det som er inni oss.

Kunne du tenker deg å forandre deg selv til ære for din egen elskede? Og ikke forlange at hun/han skal alltid være der 100% hele tiden for at du skal kunne føler deg elsket. For noen ganger kan vi stenger våre kjære inn i et hjørne og gir dem en byrde å bære på. Det er vår egen frykt på at de skal forlate oss, men hvis du ikke bekymre deg over det, er det rett og slett en bra ting, men fortsetter å lære av dine egne opplevelser uansett hva som kommer til å skje med deg.

Jeg kan skjønner at de ville ha nok gjort alt for å se oss leve et lykkelig liv, men det er ikke deres ansvar, det er vårt eget ansvar å se til at vi er lykkelige i hverdagen. Vi må kanskje også være ærlig med hverandre i et forhold for at den skal kunne fungeres. Ærlighet og åpenhet om følelsene, men når et forhold tar slutt, så er det vel slutt. Det er ikke mye vi kan gjøre med saken, bortsett fra å fortsette å leve. Vi gjør det tross alt for den vi elsker. Forsørger på at vi skal kunne leve et bra og lykkelig liv, hvem vet, kanskje de vender tilbake og ønsker oss i deres liv igjen.

Jeg aner ikke hva jeg skriver om. Det føles ut som mange kan sliter å være åpen og ærlig i et forhold noen ganger. Mest når vi er sjalu og frykter for å ende opp alene. Ensomhet er det som griper taket i de som frykter for å miste.

Jeg er visstnok en av dem, men jeg har lært å elske uselvisk og ubetinget. For jeg elsker en akkurat nå, uten så mye som å være sammen med henne. Vi er ikke i et forhold, men jeg klarer ikke å la være elske henne for det om. Det er visstnok enveis kjærlighet, men kjærlighet er kjærlighet, en vei eller to vei.. samme hvilken vei, jeg går ihvertfall ikke tilbake i mitt ord og utsagn - jeg elsker deg.

Utgivelse av Kjærlighetsbrevene.

Jeg jobber med å utgi en bok for tiden, og har ikke vært så aktiv med å skrive på bloggen. Jeg har heller ikke mye å skrive om, siden jeg vil at bloggen min skal kun være om kjærlighet. Jeg har mange ganger tvilt på meg selv når det gjelder å utgi bok. Jeg kunne trengt meg den støtten hos alle nå for å styrke min egen indre tro på at jeg kan klare det.

Det er virkelig mye jobbing med å skrive en bok. Redigering og editering f.eks. Det tar veldig mye tid før boken er helt fullkommen. Jeg vet ellers ikke hva jeg skal skrive om nå for tiden. Alt går sin gang, og jeg ønsker å være en bra forfatter. Jeg liker veldig godt å skrive, og når inspirasjonen er der skrive jeg først og fremst fra hjertet.

Jeg er forelsket og er enda forelsket i en og samme person. Jeg vet ikke hvorfor jeg ville nevner det her, men det er visstnok en grunn for at alle disse kjærlighetsbrevene kommer fra. Jeg elsker henne så meget at jeg har dedikert hele boka for henne. Kunne du noen gang tenkt deg å gjøre noe slik for den du elsker? Jeg trodde aldri selv at jeg ville gjort noe slik, men det føles veldig riktig. Det er det kjærligheten gjør med oss. Den får oss til å gi fra oss med et rent hjerte.

Hva annet kan jeg si, dagene kan være tungere enn andre dager, men alt i alt går jeg mot målet mitt med selvtillit til at ting vil ordne seg for det beste.

Crystallized ƸӜƷ

The Vibration of Love.

The sound of love rings in my ears, vibrating throughout my body and it leave traces of electric vibrations to encircle every inch of me. My heart's beat beats joyfully in ecstasy when you're near me, it's just like a butterfly meets another butterfly when they're fluttering around and saluting each other into a beautiful sunrise morning.

My love for you is like those colorful butterfly wings, creating dynamic movements in a gracious manner to move ever closer to heaven. You're heaven, and earth is your oases. I live between both worlds in wonder and amazement.

You're the winged one, the ultimate love for humankind and for all creatures. Your love for the whole universe is for us lovers to indulge ourselves into and get spoiled for being the sons and daughters of God.

I'm in deep gratitude for your living existence. You're visible to innocence eyes to see how wonderful it is to live in harmony with Mother Earth. The word of love bear no burden to anyone who knows the truth of it. And what is the truth? The truth is surely not like anything of what we already know, because it's beyond human conception.

We must find the truth within our heart to grasp and to even understand your magnificent love and beauty which you had stored and painted with each gentle stroke in the scene before our very eyes. The beauty of nature and the sweetness in a little child's smile is painted by you, the benevolent one. What we see around us is what you're revealing to us. The good and the bad, but in short terms, whatever it is, it is unconditional love. It is what it is.

We must not only see it, but feel it as well. That's how brilliant your love truly is. How can I describe it? Please sing through me, because I loved the tunes you're playing with your harp. It creates harmony in my mind and reminds me of the love that I'm possessing myself.

"I always played with my harp, to guide you, you've been listening, and you listened well, because you are singing the song by being that which you are. You're the almighty I am, that I am. Grasp it, know it, understand it with your heart, it's everything for me. Your heart, is everything to me. The one thing I treasure about you, and the secret to it, is, I treasure everything about you. Don't search for any other love that is more dynamic than the Divine Love. Don't search for any other truth, than the truth of the heart, and this is if you really want to live in harmony with anyone, you shall then be faithfully to your heart, thus faithfully to me. That's the only thing I ever wanted for you to be. Trust in yourself, even if you doubt for a moment in silence and won't utter a word to anyone else but yourself, trust in your own knowing and intuition, because I convey my message through your with all that I am. Grasp it, know it, and contemplate on it. Trust and faith are what you need when you're in a frustrating state of mind."

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I Stillhet

Det er så mye kjærlighet i meg som vil komme til uttrykk, men jeg finner ikke ord til å beskrive det. Jeg føler at jeg har skrevet sider opp og sider ned om kjærlighet, tro og fred allerede. Jeg tenker at det er ikke så viktig om jeg kan beskrive de følelsene jeg har så lenge jeg lever ut den kjærligheten med forsiktighet og klarhet. "Det er mange ting du kan få gjort, ved å bare være... i stillhet, la det kommer naturlig."

Hodet er helt blank og jeg kjenner at jeg er værende i kroppen. Jeg er mer komfortabel med å være her på Jorda med den kroppen jeg har. Jeg har ikke mye å klage over. Jeg har egentlig ikke noe å klage på, bortsett fra en lengsel om å bli totalt hel innvendig. Samtidig som jeg lengte etter min andre halv, føler jeg at egoet mitt dør. Jeg har hverken interesse i å lese bøker eller å skrive noe. Det er deilig og fredelig her inne i hjertet, for hvert hjertepuls er en påminnselse på at jeg er fortsatt levende. Dette minne meg på at jeg skal bare ta den tiden jeg trenger. Jeg er sikker på at jeg en dag kan få gjort noe som jeg kan være stolt over.

Og akkurat nå får jeg bare bruker tiden fornuftig - i stillhet.

I stillhet hører jeg alt,

samtidig ingenting.

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Jeg Vil Huske-r.

Jeg fant ut at sandkassen er fult av kattelort, dermed vil jeg ikke leke der mer. Jeg vil sitte på husken, for å 'huske' hvem jeg er fra nå av. Jeg vil sitter på husken og 'husker' hvordan det føles å fly, helt til den dagen jeg virkelig flyr.

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Tenk Selv.

(Dette er hva bevisstheten kan gjøres og ikke gjøres mot vår Moder Jord.)

Drit i hva andre gjør og velger. Velg selv og tenk selv. Ikke hør blindt på meg, jeg følger bare mitt hjerte. Det er alt jeg vet for nå. Følg ditt hjerte, og sett dine egne fotspor. Det er hva du velger og ønsker som er viktigst nå. Det du velger påvirker faktisk andre, bevisst eller ubevisst. (Høres sikkert manipulerende ut, men det er egentlig bare oppmuntring *smiler fornøyd.*)

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