Crystallized Butterfly

I really like the idea of being a butterfly. I've been searching and reading articles about ascension and starseed.. and you might think I'm crazy who believes in it. But actually... I'm going down that path already. One day, you might think I'm all crazy who talk in a rhythmic way.. rhyming and singing my heart song. I love my heart song...

I don't want to brag or 'broadcast myself' (just like my inner voice is telling me not to do; "do not broadcast yourself") I'm listening and "obeying" my inner voice with respect. It's not like I want people to think that I'm crazy and it doesn't matter if they do, but I want it to be real. If I suddenly want to sing my heart song, it must be because I feel like it.

"Crystallized butterfly, butterfly crystallized, doesn't matter what it is, it is unconditional love, all right!"

You see, I love my inner voice, but seriously, how could anyone desire to harm me if I'm being all innocence with pure love and light? Just like a child looking at life with wonder and amazement...En-gg-lish.

Maybe it's a good idea to take English class and start it all over again. It's so confusing to suddenly being all frustrated.......(and stop for a few short 'thinking-break' to correct what I was writing.... ) because I don't know if it's correct or not! You see... what I mean about being 'me'...

I really don't mind being a crystallized butterfly, or in your or other people's term, being all crazy. Everything in this world is not just black and white you know. Because I'm being myself, that my life seems to be more colorful. "And if you find happiness in being who you are, then there's no need to be someone you're not... follow happiness, be that which make you happy." You see, it's truly a bliss to be who I really am, that I am.... Do you understand what I mean, with I am, that I am?

I love my inner voice, it's wise and other time full of wits and funny ideas about life! Do not misunderstand me, I don't mean your life, I mean mine.... My Life. I don't know what your inner voice is telling you, but mine tells me only what I want to hear, even if it hurts, but truth hurts, I must learn to live with honesty and grace.... I love my butterfly wings, one day, I will truly flee from this black and white life that I used to look at... "Maybe you already are where you want to be."

*Giggle* I think it's true. I am where I want to be, right now in this moment.

- Crystallized ƸӜƷ