Love Your Neighbor As Yourself

Dear Heart,

It's humanly to be vulnerable and divinely to let it flow through the body. And even though people see you walking confidently and act cold from the outside, doesn't mean that you can not be a softy from the inside. Irriation might arise inside you if you're not willing to accept that aspect of you. And why couldn't you, when that soft side is your feminine energy. You can view it as a blessing and know that you're on your way to learn to be a divine being with human flesh with emotions and feelings.

I think if we just live from our mind, we would go dense and become a manic robot without hopes and dreams. I used to suppress my feelings before my transformation and when someone push my button I would go boom and cost everyone around me to suffer from my anger. Because of that I've learn to be more gentle with myself, and let people know how I feel and set boundaries. There're many ways to let people know how you feel, it doesn't need to be anything abusive.

When someone pushes your button, be alert, you can either accept the situation or let them know how you feel and set boundary, the worst thing you can do to yourself and people around you is to stuff everything inside you. Some button are not to be push to many times, you can go error, and who knows what you might do. I think that is why we have murder, and people who act from anger can kill and before they know what they've done, it would be too late.

I remember one time when I was younger, I had a fight with my babysister and her friends. They joined together and bullied me, and I was so angry that I gave her a slap in the face with full force. Oh my, that made her cried so much that it broke my heart! I never thought I would do something like that, but I guess I had a lot of negatives emotions inside me that time.

Well, it's normal to be angry, but since I am awake to the truth, anger is only there to teach us how to be more gentle with ourselves. We all are one, and if we are aware enough with our aggresion we will prevent it from being abusive or getting to the point of violence.

My point is, it's normal to be angry or upset, but let it out in form of tears or creative outlet is much better than when you suppress it all the time. Perhaps we could kill if we're angry enough. Whenever I read about someone who killed another from anger, I felt him right away and gets compassionated, and I will give them my blessing and hope that they would learn from their action.

Perhaps you don't understand why I'm being like that towards a murder, but the truth is -

“Hatred does not cease by hatred, but only by love; this is the eternal rule.”

- Buddha

And since we are all one, then it's logic to understand that whatever thoughts or actions we're given to another, will come back to us, ten folds. I always gets passionated when I read the news about people dying and killing each other, because my desire to raise my consciouness and to heal the world increase more and more. It's not up to me to judge, when I judge others, I'm judging myself, it limits me to feel good about myself.

It's not my busniess what other are doing with their life, how they live are up to them, and whatever happens to them are their lessons. What I do with my life and what happens to me is my busniess. I don't want to go bankrupt by tending to others busniess and neglects my own.

And shall we not love our neighbor as ourselves?

"Love your neighbor as yourself"

- Jesus

All I know, is that I would like to honor my feelings and believe in them to be true, and whenever I release them, I know that I'll be more at ease. I know that my feelings are my own, and I would rather release them and take responsibility for my reaction than blaming someone for putting it in me.

But I've learn to respond to people more than reacting without questioned them first and I truely believe that with time all wounds will heal. Even though it may take times to heal, but I know the best time to start is now... one day we will fully be ourselves enough to stand infront of our beloved and be strong enough to take care of him/her and let they know that we love them as who they are, without being afraid to show them our vulnerability.

But before that, we have a lot of work to do (BEing). We needs to tend to our own busniess and runs it as a boss running our own company. The only boss and the only employee is us anyway.

I hope my words resonate with your heart.

With much love and care,

Your beloved SiStar Crystallize.