Love Your Neighbor As Yourself

Dear Heart,

It's humanly to be vulnerable and divinely to let it flow through the body. And even though people see you walking confidently and act cold from the outside, doesn't mean that you can not be a softy from the inside. Irriation might arise inside you if you're not willing to accept that aspect of you. And why couldn't you, when that soft side is your feminine energy. You can view it as a blessing and know that you're on your way to learn to be a divine being with human flesh with emotions and feelings.

I think if we just live from our mind, we would go dense and become a manic robot without hopes and dreams. I used to suppress my feelings before my transformation and when someone push my button I would go boom and cost everyone around me to suffer from my anger. Because of that I've learn to be more gentle with myself, and let people know how I feel and set boundaries. There're many ways to let people know how you feel, it doesn't need to be anything abusive.

When someone pushes your button, be alert, you can either accept the situation or let them know how you feel and set boundary, the worst thing you can do to yourself and people around you is to stuff everything inside you. Some button are not to be push to many times, you can go error, and who knows what you might do. I think that is why we have murder, and people who act from anger can kill and before they know what they've done, it would be too late.

I remember one time when I was younger, I had a fight with my babysister and her friends. They joined together and bullied me, and I was so angry that I gave her a slap in the face with full force. Oh my, that made her cried so much that it broke my heart! I never thought I would do something like that, but I guess I had a lot of negatives emotions inside me that time.

Well, it's normal to be angry, but since I am awake to the truth, anger is only there to teach us how to be more gentle with ourselves. We all are one, and if we are aware enough with our aggresion we will prevent it from being abusive or getting to the point of violence.

My point is, it's normal to be angry or upset, but let it out in form of tears or creative outlet is much better than when you suppress it all the time. Perhaps we could kill if we're angry enough. Whenever I read about someone who killed another from anger, I felt him right away and gets compassionated, and I will give them my blessing and hope that they would learn from their action.

Perhaps you don't understand why I'm being like that towards a murder, but the truth is -

“Hatred does not cease by hatred, but only by love; this is the eternal rule.”

- Buddha

And since we are all one, then it's logic to understand that whatever thoughts or actions we're given to another, will come back to us, ten folds. I always gets passionated when I read the news about people dying and killing each other, because my desire to raise my consciouness and to heal the world increase more and more. It's not up to me to judge, when I judge others, I'm judging myself, it limits me to feel good about myself.

It's not my busniess what other are doing with their life, how they live are up to them, and whatever happens to them are their lessons. What I do with my life and what happens to me is my busniess. I don't want to go bankrupt by tending to others busniess and neglects my own.

And shall we not love our neighbor as ourselves?

"Love your neighbor as yourself"

- Jesus

All I know, is that I would like to honor my feelings and believe in them to be true, and whenever I release them, I know that I'll be more at ease. I know that my feelings are my own, and I would rather release them and take responsibility for my reaction than blaming someone for putting it in me.

But I've learn to respond to people more than reacting without questioned them first and I truely believe that with time all wounds will heal. Even though it may take times to heal, but I know the best time to start is now... one day we will fully be ourselves enough to stand infront of our beloved and be strong enough to take care of him/her and let they know that we love them as who they are, without being afraid to show them our vulnerability.

But before that, we have a lot of work to do (BEing). We needs to tend to our own busniess and runs it as a boss running our own company. The only boss and the only employee is us anyway.

I hope my words resonate with your heart.

With much love and care,

Your beloved SiStar Crystallize.

Get Back Up

Dear Beloved Heart,

George Burns says;

"Failure is only a fact when you give up. Everyone gets knocked down, the question is: Will you get back up?"

And he is right.

Sometimes is seems to be more easier to just lie around and wait for someone to come and save you from your own misery, but if you're determined to just stay down, then no one can help you. Because no matter who's coming to save you, you will just keep laying there waiting to be lead and waiting for them to dictated you how you should live your life.

And yes, that is possible, it depends on how long you're willing to let someone else runs the show for you. But I'm here to tell you that it's way better for you to live your life the way you want it, than letting someone telling you how to live it. It's never to late to get back up and be your own hero.

It's also possible to get back up, no matter what. Because the show must go on, and let it go on and on and on, until one day you're not here on planet earth anymore, and your soul goes back to where it belong. Live your life the way you want to live it, be the change you want to see in the world. And I mean, not the change people want you to be, but the CHANGE YOU want to see in the world.

Whatever they say, everyone has their opinions and beliefs, I just hope that it won't make you scared and stop you from being Who You Are. I hope you won't take it personally and condemn yourself. I hope you won't condemn other either, but even though you do, remember you're learning from your own experiences. And the same goes for me. I'm learning, not to jugde myself, my actions and my words.

"Judge not, that ye be not judged. For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye meet, it shall be measured to you again. And why beholdest thou the mote that is in thy brother’s eye, but considerest not the beam that is in thine own eye?"

- Matthew 7:1-3

Fear and jugdment creates separation, while love brings us together. You can either be your own bestfriend, or your worst enemy.

You're a hero and heroine. Soon you will notice, that no one can live your life better than you do.

Remember tha I'm beaming you with my love and light, always.

Crystallize.

Fra Fantasi Til Virkelighet

Kjære Elskede Hjerte,

Strever du med å finne deg selv i en sjø av mennesker i denne såkalte verden vi kaller jorda? Har du kanskje vært som meg, levd etter andres normer og relger, en duplikasjon av den orginalen, som ikke er fullstendig din"copyright"? Kanskje den du dupliseres av var ikke orginalen selv?

Jeg har i lang tid definert meg selv fra forskjellige roller som har blitt tilegnet meg, av hundre og muligens billionvis av mennesker, hendelser og ting.

Jeg har gjentatte ganger funnet meg selv, men den livslange programmeringen som har blitt lagret i min underbevissthet fikk meg stadig til å glemmer meg selv, igjen og igjen.

Det er den programmeringen som kalles for oppdragelse, det er fra siden vi var liten av. Et program som kanskje har gått ut av dato, og fra tid til en annen trenger en ny oppdatering, for det er nå en ny tid i vente, sikkert nok ikke bare for meg, men for oss alle.

Hva gjør den programmen med oss? Jeg har lenge utforsket hva den har gjort med og uheldigvis mot meg, og før det er forsent til å angre, har jeg nå lært å følge min intuisjon, impulsiviteten og å være mer fleksibelt. Trist men sant, så har den ødelagt mye for meg mer enn den har hjulpet meg, men mirakuløst nok, har den visst gitt meg tilbake til meg selv igjen.

Det er sånne ting som ikke kan endres på eller hviskes vekk fra hukommelsen, men likevel så har jeg funnet mot og håp nok til å akseptere det og gjøre mitt beste ved å gjøre de tingene jeg ikke fikk gjort den gangen.

Programmet kan få deg til å gjøre ting du sikkert nok ikke ville ha gjort, hvis du hadde husket Hvem Du Var fra utgangspunktet av, men hele mysteriet med å bli født til denne verden er å gjenvinne medlidenheten og være menneskelig nok til å endre på fortidens feiltagelse.

Å være menneske er visst nok ikke lett. Ihvertfall ikke som jeg hadde opplevd det. Det var som å bli dratt i to forskjellige retninger på en og samme tid. Jeg har blitt oppdratt til å ikke juge, men har likevel blitt jugd til. Jeg har blitt oppdratt til å ta vare på andre, men ble aldri tatt vare på, ihvertfall ikke slikt det skulle ha vært eller slikt jeg virkelig ønsket det.

Jeg har blitt oppdratt til å skjule følelsene mine, men fikk stadig beskjed om at det var umulig å forstå seg på meg. Og da jeg først viste følelsene mine og ordla det, ble jeg angrepet for å være respektløs eller uærlig.

Hvordan er det mulig å leve opp til et så forvrengt forbilde, der det er konstant forvirring på moralen?

Det har ikke gjort ting lettere for oppveksten heller, når jeg selv oppdaget at de fleste mennesker oppfører seg slik. De hevder som regel å ha moraler, preferanser og lever stolt opp til sine standarder og normer, men er ignorant til sine egne motsetninger og følelser.

Nei, å være menneske skal ikke være lett, for jeg selv følte at jeg var slik. Det har ikke vært lett for hverken kroppen og sjelen å finne seg til rette når tankene plyndret alt den gleden ved å leve.

Jeg har kommet så langt som å konkludere at jeg har min egen unike levemåte, som hverken er lik og kommer ikke til å være lik andre på noen måter. Det er umulig å ha noen som er lik meg, på personlighet og utseende vel? Selv om jeg hadde hatt en eneggede tvilling søster, ville hun muligens vært noe helt for seg selv.

Du lurer sikkert nok på Hvem Du Er utifra det jeg har skrevet her (og kanskje ikke), men det er et mysterie som du selv kan ha gleden med å finne ut av. Jeg kan forklare deg det, men jeg kan ikke forstå det for deg.

Dessuten så har jeg fått nok av å vente på at du skal forstå det og å gi deg svar på en sølvfat. Ikke misforstå meg, jeg har ikke gitt opp håpet på at du en dag kommer til å finne ut av det, jeg vet du vil, men det er nok en timing for alt, inkludert når du endelig har skjønt det. Og når den tiden kommer, vil jeg være klar til å si "I told you so." (Just kidding!)

Vi alle har forskjellige meninger og definisjoner på hvordan livet skal leves. Finn den måten som passer deg best, men ikke forvent at livet vil forbli det samme i all evighet, grunnet er at forandringer er selveste essensen i å leve.

Gir det deg noen mening? Nei, det skjønte jeg ikke noe særlig heller og kommer nok aldri til å "skjønne" det, men velkommen etter! Verden er full av kontraster, berg og dal baner. Du kan velge å surfe med, sleng deg med på bølgen, eller ikke. Det er opp til deg hva du gjør med livet ditt, muligens det eneste du kan få gjort noe med. For hvilken rett har du å velge for andre?

Selv den som alltid har blitt ledet, vil en dag innser at han/hun faktisk ønsker å velge noe annet, helt for seg selv; selvstendigheten til å være en hel menneske med rettigheter til å leve slik de selv ønsker.

Kanskje derfor vi har noe som kalles for drømmer, og håpet på et "bedre liv." Og hva betyr et "bedre liv" for deg? For meg betyr det å være orginalen, der livet mitt er en copyright og ikke en duplikasjon av andres resultater og konklusjoner.

Den firkantete boksen min vil nok ekspanderes så lenge jeg tørr å utforske og legger tvilen til side ved å følge magefølelsen min. Kanskje den ikke er fullt ut firkantete som jeg trodde den var. For du vet hva de sier, virkeligheten er ikke det samme som du tror!

(Ja, jeg vet, det høres lett ut, men det skal ikke være så enkelt som alle Mestrene før oss hevder det. Og kanskje det faktisk er SÅ ENKELT at det er umulig å tro på er sant!?)

Morsooooom!

Din Elskede SøStjerne,

Crystallized Butterfly

There's I

Dearest Heart,

I'm lying around,
waiting for someone to save me.
But there was no one else there
to save me, but me.

Who's out there looking in,
and who's inside looking out.

Behind that dark dark clouds
there's a blue blue sky.
Behind every mask,
there's a face to hide.

An Angel whispered sofly in my ear
and ignited my passion to keep on living.
Not for the sake of living alone, but to
stand up from where I lie,
and fly towards the blue blue sky.

There was someone there to save me after all.
That someone is, I.

With much love from
My butterfly essence.

Vær Original

"You were born an original. Don't die a copy."

— John Mason

Kjære Elskede Hjerte,

En dalende snufnøgg er ikke lik de tusen andre snøfnuggene. Hvis du søker om det, vil du snart oppdager at ingen snøfnugger er identisk like, men de alle har noe tilfelles. Og vet du hva det er? De er alle snøfnugger.

Og slik er vi også. Hvert enkelt individ er unik på hver sin måte. Vi er forskjellige fra utsiden. Vi ser annerledes ut utseendemessig, vi har forskjellige personligheter og interesser, men vi er like på innsiden. Det er våre likhetstrekk.

La oss gjør det enda enklere. Vi har to øyner, en nese, to ører og en munn. Vi har en kropp som kommer i forskjellige størrelse og bredde, men likevel, vi har en ting tilfelles. Vårt hjerte.

Med den føler vi medlidenhet med hverandre, med den føler vi kjærlighet for hverandre, med den føler vi glede, sorg, tristhet, sinne og bitterhet. Hvis den andre føler det, vil vi også føler det. Vi forstår oss på hverandre ikke med ord, men med følelser.

Lytt med følelsene dine, lytt til det de føler og ikke bare hva de sier. Du kan si en ting, men mener noe annet. Ord er et verktøy, men den beste verktøyet vi har fått, er følelsene våres. Vi kan smile til hverandre og se hverandre inn i øynene og det hadde vært nok.

Du er unik, det er kun et eksemplar av deg. Vær deg selv, syng den musikken ditt hjerte lengte å spille for deg å høre. Det er ikke noe galt å ha et mål som alle andre, men gjør det på din måte. Vær autentisk, unik og kreativ i hvordan du fullføre ting.

Det er i orden, for det er mange måter å komme seg til målet, men bruk den måten du føles er mest komfortabel for deg, gå, tusle, lek deg mot målet ditt, skritt for skritt. Vær det du allerede vil bli, ikke gjør det for å bli noen, for du er allerede så unik at du er NOEN. Og det er lenge før du kom hit på jorda, lenge før noen fortelle deg hvem du er. Lenge før du vet ordet av det.

Du er og vil alltid være unik!

Varme Omfavnelser,

Crystallized }°{

A Prayer From The Heart

Dear Lord

I thank you for giving me strength and courage to continue on my path. May I be humble, yet confidence in who I am. May I always care for other sincerly and without judgment. May I love myself unconditionally, so I can love my fellow being unconditionally. May my doing spring from being, from light and from love.

Amen

Crystallize

A Melancholy Song

I hear the sound of raindrops

Falling on my rooftop

As I watch out the window

Gazing upon the sky,

My eyes wander,

In search after the moon

Raindrops sing a melancholy song

For my heartfelt longing

I cannot see the moon anywhere

Thunder and lightning arouse the storm to come

I guess the moon is shying away behind

That dark veil of the clouds tonight

Raindrops still falling down on my rooftop

It sings a melancholy song for my heartfelt longing

- Crystallized ƸӜƷ

My Twin Flame Soulmate

My Dearest Beloved

I danced in the shadow,

and I leap through the light,

waiting patiently

for you to come each night.

I wait attentively

for your every footstep,

my breath draws

you closer to my heart,

I've know you many eon

before this journey started.

I've seen your beautiful face

in countless of mirrors

with each mirror

I'm drawned closer to you.

When you're near me,

I'm sure I'll remember

that we are meant to be.

I'll recognize your heartbeats,

because yours is mine.

Yours Faithfully,

Twin Flame soulmate.

Childhood Dreams

Dearest Heart & Soul,

Reach out your hand

and take mine in yours,

don't drag or pull it back.

Let me hold your hand

and lead you to my secret place.

Don't be afraid.

I hold your hand tightly

and gently squeeze it slightly.

Can you feel it?

This nostalgia;

childhood dreams in boxes.

I'm mesmerized.

With Love,

Your Inner Child.

Eternal Love

Dear Beloved Heart,

Love came and broke the shell
I used to hide myself into
when darkness surrounded my heart.
I can no longer recall the days,
where I let myself fall,
Lonely days, where I fell into the sea of emptiness
where I would find myself in my own arms
cradling myself to sleep.

The more I walk this path called enlightenment,
the more I leave the outside world to itself.
I crave to taste the ecstasy
of the mysterious, we call life,
while leaving the rainbow untouched
I've found my inner light.

I dreamt of a love bigger than myself,
a love which succed all else,
a love so warm and tender that it melts
away the winter in my beloved's heart.
Love cracks my heart open for the light
to merge and penetrate my whole being,
so I can walk as One,
with light and love -
into the infinite.

Love your Soul.

Every Moment Is A New Moment

Dearest Heart,

Every moment of life, is a new moment with numerous of possibilities to choose, to decide and to give way to love. Another moment living fully from the heart and to sip its joy and to be thankful for another breath taken.

How is your breathing? Are you breathing deep enough? Do you give way to your heart to exalt you to a better life? Or do you chase the rainbrown and daydreaming vividly of the life you would want to have but don't dare to live?

What are you waiting for? For the sky to turn grey and you can no longer take another breath, to fully live in this moment of your life? How many moments do you really remember in one day, and really enjoyed it? Without complaining or finding another excuse for not living the life you dreamt of? To feel free to do whatever your heart delight, to rest on a bench to watch the landscape, or just basking in the sun for ONE whole moment, and breath in life that is given to you in this very, very moment?

There're many moments in one day, if you can live each moment anew, you will remember the whole day as worthwhile, and know deep down in your heart, you needs nothing. You don't need anything, which you think will make you happy. All these "things", that you think might make you more secure of a future that might not be there at all. Your future is NOW. As you be in this moment, deep inside you, you have all the power you can have to make your dreams come true. Not in doing alone, but first in being, then the doing will come.

Do you think that I write this, just to write? I'm not doing this, I'm being and the words flows from my heart through my fingers and onto this page.

I'm talking to your heart, your heart will answer all the questions, and before you know it, you would breathe, and be in silence to give way to your own heart to exalt you to live the life it wants you to live. Peaceful, happy, joyfully and rich. A content life, without adding "things" to your being and gets heavy with duties. Rich not with money but with multiply choices to decide for yourself, what is BEST for you, and your heart knows it very well.

"Be still and know that I am God." (Psalm 46:10)

Not a God of religions, but a God of Love. A free loving God. But that doesn't matter. God wants you to remember Him with your heart, not with your mind. God wants you, to believe in your Self, in your heart, because He dwells in your heart as well as you're dwelling in His. He carry your heart, and hide His Self for the world, but it's not meant to be kept as a secret. His heart, it's meant to be given away, to you, He's IN your heart.

I Carry Your Heart

I carry your heart with me (I carry it in

my heart) I am never without it (anywhere

I go you go, my dear; and whatever is done

by only me is your doing, my darling) I fear

no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) I want

no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)

and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant

and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows

(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud

and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows

higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)

and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart)

- E.E Cummings

Now use it well and wise, before you waste another heart beat, to chase the rainbow and waiting for your lifeforce energy to be drained, and finding another excuse not to listen to your heart at this very moment.

Be kind to yourself and generous to your heart, make a day for listening to its wisdom and plea, and comtemplating upon the truth it has given you.

With Love,

Crystallized }°{

God's Perfection

Dear Beloved,

O' how I wish to soar in that velvet blue sky

and sprinkle myself with star dust at night.

If it was possible,

I would mend myself with the wind to take fly

and always keep myself up high.

I'm in awe of God's perfection

and is truely amazed by His creation.

With Love from your Soul

Stand Up And Be Your Own Leader.

Dear Beloved Heart,

It’s time to speak up your mind and be the leader of your life. You can contribute to the world by being true to yourself and not back down for anything less than unconditional love. I do understand that you might fear not to tell the truth or face the truth and see it for what it is. As we are going through a process to evolve and develop our abilities, we may find it hard to stand up and speak our mind, and it’s ok, but know that you will be guided by your soul to be more authentic and true to youserlf.

Our Divine Father God and Mother Earth (Gaia) is very patience and they love us without any demand. All they want is for you/me to transform and see the light that you/I already have inside us. The light lies within your soul, and in the dark you can still see it, even with a faintest glim of light.

All I want for you and our next generation is peace and harmony. Peace will be visible as long as you make peace with yourself, and acknowlegde your power as well as your weakness. To be peaceful is not necessary to quarrel about peace or discuss about it, I choose to be it and demonstrate it with my action rather than trying to make it by discussion, but of course there are many who need to be guided to understand how it is to be peaceful.

I don't judge anyone even if they choose to make peace by demonstration, I am after all a butterfly, it's my essence to observe and calm myself during chaos and hard times. If people are satisfied with the way they are and what they're doing... then it's for me truly a blessing, it's nothing I would want for you than your own free will to choose how you will live your life.

I just want to love without fear, and to be Who I Am. The real me... sometimes even imperfect, but still real. I just want to contribute to this world, by being the unique me. There's nothing wrong with that, because the essence is to show myself as Who I Am.

I don't know when my last breath will be, but while I'm still breathing, I'll continue on learning not to judge as well, because I'm living here on planet earth after all. It's not about judging others alone, but judging myself too. I want to stop condemning and criticizing the way I am and how I'm leading my life, and most of all, get over my unlucky-past events, even though people or situations might triggers my emotion-rollercoaster again, but it's not something I need to worry, I'll take that as a reminder to accept and love myself more.

I sense that the change is truely manifested now as I am more clear about my life purpose, its actually growing little by little now and it's a good thing indeed.

"Something's changing deep inside. All my hopes are comin' alive.."

- Jonas L.A (invisible)

You don't really have to start over with your life, all you need is to continue. Continue where you left and remember to reach out to your little wounded child and embrace him/her. Please, do reconnect with your inner child so you can love yourself and the world even more. I know you can do that, even with hope. It's not a bad thing to be hopeful and optimistic. How else would you continue with your journey?

Have faith in yourself, as I am having faith in you.

With much love and light to your heart,

from my Heart Space Sanctuary.

Crystallized }°{

To Let Go Is Not The Same As Giving Up.

Dear Beloved Heart,

Many of us are stressed out because of time, but time do not exist in the spritiual world, it’s something that our mind is creating, trying to captured us by rocking us back and forth, back and forth from the past to the future.

Sometime we will be fooled by our thoughts, thoughts that claim us to be unworthy, but if you can examine it closer, and ask for clarity, you will know that it’s not true. Do not believe in them thoughts which tell you that you’re unworthy and undeserving of unconditional love.

As we are here on planet earth, we will have to go through density and myriad of feelings will reflect back to us, because the soul communicate to us through feelings.

Everybody is worthy with every feeling they might have towards something or someone. Whatever feeling they might carry within them. As you’re here now, I suggest you to drop them thoughts and let yourself merge into oneness love within your heart. Feelings are beautiful, in a sense, they are. Without them we'll be running like a wrecked machines. Wouldn't we?

We tend to go against ourselves and create separation between us and the people we love. But it’s not necessary anymore as we are moving into the 5D. It’s time for us to live from our heart and let the next generation be free from duality and ego perception of right and wrong.

You’re likely to cost yourself injuries, if you’re not aware of what you’re thinking. Instead of judging your thoughts, or the way you’re feeling, you can choose to accept them and release them from your conscious. It's more than ok, to have feelings, because it's not inhuman to have feelings, it's perfectly fine to be humanly. Some reality is hard to accept, but if we don't accept ourselves for Who We Are, I'm sure that it’s difficult to accept others as Who They Are.

I really appreciate that you takes interest in me and my love letters. I know there’re many lonely souls who have not yet awakened to the truth, but there’s Divine timing for everyone and everything.

Many of them are actually very friendly and trying to help out and keep me and people around them in company, without knowing that they can raise themselves up the same level by simply break free from their thoughts.

We’re lucky to be able to witness mass awakening as we’re moving into 5D reality – and the heart perception where there’s only oneness love.

There’s no need to isolated yourself in fear that people might don’t accept you as who you are. Master don’t make plan and claim to go through the plan in order to prevent chaos. Being a master is to accept whatever that comes his/her way.

You can still be with others, even though you might not feels like talking all the time. If you can do your best to strike a balance between being humble and confident, then you will feel total harmony with yourself. Be humble yet confident in Who You Are in one and the same time.

You’re being the best you can be and Whoever you are, can’t compare to who you choose to be from moment to moment. You do make a difference in this world and you’re playing a part of the mass awakening and I’m glad you’re here reading this words.

Because I urge you to live in your heart and love yourself as who you are instead of trying do something, to be someone, to be loved by others. You’re being the love that God has bestowed upon Mother Earth. Take pride in it and be honoured for the choice you make by being here at this time and age.

You’re worthy of unconditional love, and you will always be loved by Divine Father God and Mother Earth (Gaia)

If you’re going through sleepless nights just remember to give thanks to God, be grateful for the changes ahead. There will not be bitter thoughts of what's wrong or what's right, or who has wronged who, once you lives fully in the heart.

We all do our best that we can at any given moment. Letting go doesn't mean to give up. All you need to let go of is the illusion of separation and unworthiness, letting go, doesn’t mean that you give up on love.

Learn and do your best to listen with your heart and see if it’s helpful for you or not. But since I begin learning from my heart, I find life is more easy to live than it used to be.

With much love,

Crystallized }°{

A Well of Love

Dear Beloved Heart,

I feel such bliss. A calm peaceful light-waves caressing my whole being. I am caring and sharing with you while I smile and laugh like a innocence child; with one breath of life, I am now deeply connected to a well of LOVE. I am simply in awe and deeply grateful for everything as it is and everyone as they are.

In thou I see a glorious light that shine brighter than a candle flame... perhaps even more than a thousand splendid suns.

I beam you with my love and light,

Crystallized }°{

Summer Prayer.

Dear Beloved,

I pray;

May I find mySelf in the dark, at my darkest hour.
May I love myself at my worst (so I can give from myself at my best.)
May I rise up after a fall -
And most of all...

May I bloom before summer is over ..
Because spring knocked on my window this morning. ~

With Love and Light,

Amaia Crystallized }°{

The Language of Your Soul

Dear Beloved Heart,

Your body doesn’t carry your soul, your soul carry your body.

If it wasn’t for your soul, you -

your body would be an empty vessel without feelings.

The finest thing in life is to be in motion,

From depression to happiness,

from chaos to peace.

Whatever that makes you feel,

listen carefully -

that's the language of your soul.

With Love & Light

Crystallized }°{

My Butterfly Essence

Dear Beloved Heart,

I sit here drenched in the power of goodness,

But still,

I'm caught in a web of lies,

Trying to get back to my own reality where freedom lies.

The Ego's illusions tried it best to shakle me down,

While,

My heartbeats losen up the chains and seek its freedom

to continue on the journey back home,

to where my,

butterfly essence belong.

With love and light

Crystallized Butterfly }°{

Love is The Cure

Beloved Heart,

Love is not painful or the illness. Fear is painful and Love is the cure. Share your love is an act of care. Begin by giving yourself as much love as possible, and while you're at it, share it with a knowning that you're not needy of love, but you needs love so you can share it with the people around you, whether it is with someone you love, your family, friends or even a stranger.

Selflove is not the kind of love that is arrogant or vanity, selflove is an act of confidence to see yourself as an individual. You are unique and there is only one of you.

How to love yourself? Well, I love myself as if I am my own best friend. When a friend is in need, you would take sometime to listen and comfort him/her, then why wouldn't you listen to yourself? To hear what your thoughts are telling you. To be more aware of the pain in your body. To take care of your feelings and not jugde or critizes your own thoughts, feelings and faults. To be conscious about the way you're treating yourself, so you can see it cleary how other are treating you. The way you view your life and how people treating you are how you think about yourself.

It's not always easy to be concious about what you think or feel. Sometime we may let people, situation chackles us down, and it's easy to blame them. Make them to be the source of your miserable. Do you feel like you don't have the power to change yourself or the situation, or maybe you want someone else to change so you will feel better? And maybe you think you're at fault, so you deserve to feel as you do and punish yourself for it?

That's ok too, the only way to get away from self-blame and blaming things from the outside, is to recognize the pain in our heart and tummy.

Well, I think, life is wonderful when you start to love yourself as if you are the number #1 in your life. Life treats me well when I begin to notice how I've been treating myself in the past and decide to change how I view myself and love myself more and more for each and every day. I'm learning to love and respect myself each and every single day. It's not easy, but patience is a virtue.

This is thanks to the Divine Guidance I've been reciving, but nothing would've happened if I didn't decide for myself that I want to change. To discover all the negative feelings and thoughts that was hidden inside of me was pretty tough at first, but it was a good way as well, because if I wasn't aware of them, I wouldn't know what I could do to change myself.

If you could choose, would you choose what's good for you or the opposite?

If I could choose, I would choose what's good for me. Because that's what I want. Happiness, peace, harmony, joy, abundance, love, safety, freedom, creativity and all the goods life can supply and gives to me.

And the fact is. I CAN CHOOSE! And if I CAN, YOU CAN TOO! No doubt about it. If everyone love themselves unconditionally war would never exsist. Who wants to fight, when they love themselves anyway.

It is up to you too choose, to create a good life, or make your life miserable. And when you're ready to let go, and please do it for yourself and for the people around you whom you insist to love - I'm sure you will get help. You're the only one who knows what is best for you.

I already know what is best for me, and that is, to let yourself decide what is best for you.

Much Love and Light,

Amaia Crystallize }°{.

Inner Peace

Dear Beloved Heart & Soul,

You can do your best to take as many as you want on your journey, but the truth is, eventually you must walk your path alone. Therefore be prepared when someone choose another path. Surrender to the truth will set yourself free from judgement.

All paths will leads you back home. Just know that ascension is to pull down more light into your body and be grounded, so that you can help Mother Earth (Gaia) to ascend as well.

We all makes mistakes, no one is complete perfect, but because we accept ourselves as who we are, we come to see perfection in others. That's how God created us, perfectly.

Wrong doing arise within the mind, judgement arise from fear. Only the heart knows the truth of non-duality.

Acceptance is the first act of inner peace. No one says it will be easy when walking the road no one has taken. The voyage may seems long and difficult, but when you calm your mind and make peace with you heart you will find your inner peace.

If you want peace to be visible in your reality, you must first find peace within your heart. You must forgive yourself and make peace with your heart..

"Peace comes from within, do not seek it without".

- Buddha

With Much Light & Love

Amaia Crystallized Butterfly }°{

Being Emphatic Is A Gift!

Dear Beloved Heart & Soul,

Today I felt overwhelmed. First of all because our society have called our ability to be empathic a sickness. I'm going through a major life change right now, as you all know. Many of you may feel and even go through the same as I do, in this time of ascension.

It's hard to suddenly going through something that you've never planned at all. I can't remember that I planned to go through such transformation where I ended in the hospital, while the doctor asked me many questions that I don't even know how to answer, I sensed that they thought I was in some kind of halusion. But from my view point, my life has started to go in the right direction, as if it was turned right side up. Somehow I know and understand how important it is for me to transform.

I want to write this letter personally to everyone whom's going through the same as I do right now in this hour and time of change. Change for the better is inevitable. It doesn't matter how other view your abilities, even the one that is out of the norm or what society might call it. One thing is certain, you're all unique as everyone else. You've done well and you had done a great job being the love and light of our Almighty Divine Father God. He gave humanity and this planet so much love through you, and why wouldn't you feel overwhelmed, because it's truly a blessing.(Although it doesn't feel like it once you're in the middle of the storm.)

Rest assured that you're here as a spirit, having human experiences and not a human being having spiritual experiences. This is important to remember, so that you'll not view yourself as unwhorty of the unconditional love from our Divine Father God and Mother Earth (Gaia).

Honor every feeling you have, because they're your guideline to understand how it is for other to feel the same way. Being empathic is to feel how other's feeling. That way you'll understand how to be more compassionated towards lives on Mother Earth.

I write to you from my deepest Heart-Space Sanctuary, and most of all from where my soul is resting. Your tears are Holy and Sacred for Mother Earth. This is how you will water Her with your compassion and love. Your tears are like healing water. So please, do not fear to cry, even in public. Let it out whatever you may feel in form of tears or just in any creative ways, through music or painting etc, this way you can heal yourself, and get rid of any blockage in your Body and Heart.

I thank you for accepting my Divinity and See it in me as well as I'm seeing it in you all.

Yours Faithfully

Crystallize

Destiny

It's written in the stars. Destined to be.
What is given will be returned.

The stars say so.
The sky say so.
The sun say so.
The moon say so.

What reason is there to believe?
The reason is I've seen it.
Not only me, but you too.

You just have to be more aware of it.
That's all.

With Love and Light,
Amaia Crystallize

There's No Need To Fix.

Dear Beloved Heart,

I want to be the Love God has bestowed upon me. Like an instrument for God to use, I feel enlightened to know that this love has never been a burden, but only a blessing. It's a blessing, to be special enough to make a difference in the world, with the abilities, I've within my heart. I've overcome many struggles, and not to mention all the experiences I've experienced to be where I am right now. It's a certain that there's nothing I cannot do with the help of God's hands and many of the helper He has given me through my ascension.

I'm overjoy to know that everything happens for a reason even how small that reason should be. I delight myself into my present moment right now and right here, while I pour out words from the depth of my soul for you to read.

Sorrow came and swept me of my feet. I hunger to know more of it, so that I can pour more love into the hollow heart-space. Insanity is when I perceive what people do, is wrong. While sanity is to know that God creates only perfection.

Errors are not, there's no need to "fix". It doesn't matter whether it is to fix a relationship or a situation. What matters the most is to love, to forgive and change the frequencies to be more positive so that there will be more options for my fellow people to choose on.

Nothing is impossible, you'll see, you'll hear and you'll know it, as times goes bye.

I beam you with my love and light,

Amaia Crystallize.

Fears Not The fear

Fear do exist in me
But I fears not the fear which approch me
I surrender my being and let fear comes
Fear do exist, so let it come
I want to know where it will go

Approch yet again, my fear
I know you come to bring me your wisdom
I surrender my being and I'm willing to learn
Teach me, I want to know where you're going

It aches inside my body
Oh, fear, show me mercy
Tell me where are you coming from
Through this body of mine, where are you going

I am now aware of my body
Because of the pain my fears cost me
My soul is the beholder of my body
Makes it able to function
Fear do exist, but not as an enemy
But as a friend, who teach me
how to take care of -
The shelter to my soul

With much Love & Light,
Amaia Crystallize

Stay True

Dear Beloved Heart,

Stay true to yourself no matter what people may say or think about you. They may not understand the reason behind your action, but as long as you know why and understand yourself, it's therefore enough.

Walk steady and stay calm, because you will make it through when you have faith in yourself.

With much Love and Light

Crystallize

Birdy

Birdy, birdy, birdy -
Fly fly fly.
I want you to fly to where you want to rest your wings,
and let the sun embraced your feather
and its beams reflected in your eyes.
Birdy, birdy, birdy -
Fly fly fly.
You're so beautiful
when you soars in that blue blue sky.
Birdy, birdy, birdy,
I love it when you're free and wild,
because you don't belong in that imprisoned cage,
but flying freely in the wild.
Birdy, birdy, birdy,
I know you love to fly -
So go ahead and fly fly fly.

With Love and Light
Amaia Crystallize

Your Wake Up Call

I love to wake up to your call
Your voice is like silk soothing my soul
Your voice gently, lifting me up from my sleep
It lifting the veil of my dreams
So I can take a glimpse into the eternal truth
Where dreams are possible to be fulfilled

This feeling can't be describe by words only
A feeling, which is so divine and glorious
Burns exceedingly in the flame of passion inside my heart
I am proud to admit:
- This is the source to my life

If you look into my eyes
The depth you see
Where you can find nothing but emptiness
But when there is nothing
There you are

Crystallized ƸӜƷ

My Reality

Dear Beloved Soul and Heart.

The veil of illusion is now gone from my sight. I'm able to understand, comprehend and know with my inner knowing that I'm ONE with you all. I feel you all beloveds! I will sing my song, I will contribute and make heaven on earth. I'm being compassionated and nurturing. I'm going to do a ceremony, my beloved Gurdian Angel will help me, to complete the ceremony. The ego's heart begins to crumble with every breath I take. I feel like dying each time.. It's hard to breathe with a belief that separation is real, and still believing in the mind, duality. For me there's no duality or separation, only Oneness Love and harmony. I'll write again soon.

I hope you all do understand and feel it in your heart that we are one, the pain you feel, whatever you feel, is all energies.

Yours faithfully,
siStar Crystallize

Solitary - Unique

Picture creds to Dr. Daniel W. Leighly Msc.D

What to write?

Feelings are sometime hard to describe.

When you try to grasp it, it's already gone.

Feelings are changeable,

but love is the only thing that's real.

If you ever wondered if I love you,

then I admit, I do,

but not the way you want me too.

I cannot fit into your image of what love is.

The heart longs not to lie,

but to be truthful.

To give love

and to take nothing but love.

I can only love you as myself,

and when I love myself,

I love you.

We had gone astray and believed that it was not possible to love unconditionally, while love is what it is. Unconditional. My heart is overflowing with love, I can barely go on before I emptied it... So here I am...

I split my heart open,

and let love escape

from the heartshaped prison.

While taking a look inside,

I'm seeing my own light

reflected back at me.

My reflection, I see it

in the corner of everyone's eyes.

Billions of lives

beats with one single heart.

The heart of humanity.

While the pain of loneliness,

is in truth,

a triumph of being solitary,

- unique.

Your Beloved

SiStar Crystallize

Miracle

Picture creds to Eiji Morishita

Dear Beloved Heart & Soul of Mine,

Whenever I am with you, the truth about love keeps passing across my mind. The small voice within whisper tenderly to me, and my heart rejoice, thumbing away with your every touch. I am always aware of the thorn inside my heart, and yes, it will ache, and only if I want to possess your for myself. The aching pain will alerts me to the truth, that love possesses not nor will it be possessed, for love is sufficient unto love.

And love is as innocent as a child looking at the world with curiosity and wonder. Each time I am with you, I keep remember how to love, and my eagerness to express myself gets ahead of me and I am no longer afraid to be with you, but I am excited for what might lies ahead the next moment. I remember how to love unconditionally without attachment or expectations, that the only love there is, is God's Love for all and all. My heart, expand and happiness swallow my whole being, covering me with its velvet purple soft silk, and I am able to sense you, my dear beloved Miracle.

Every moment I am with you, there is no past nor future, only an eternal moment where worries no longer exist and we are only who we are. Even without knowing what the future might brings we cease to exist in that present moment, which is more than a lifetime. I realize that I don't want to change you for a single moment and the needs to make you mine disappear as fog within the next. It disappear as dew dries out when the sun rise above the horizon.

There is no need for security, there's no need to know if you want to stay or go, or not telling the world of my existent. It doesn't matter at all, if you tells whoever that is, that I am friend, a lover or merely a stranger you barely know, as long as you know in your heart what I am to you and if you are happy with whatever choice you make, then it's more than enough for me.

And so what, if I am a friend, a lover or a stranger, my love for you won't change or cease to exist, and yes, love is flexible enough to be whatever it wants to be to suit its beloved. It doesn't matter how many times you decide who you are, or that you changes yourself, like a chameleon changes it skin to fit into its surrounding, I will be your camouflage, covered your skin if you desire so.

And as long as it makes you safe and secure, then I am able. Able to love you as Who You Are. And if you needs time, I will give you an eternity, in one single moment, our present, the gift of today. For isn't that what it is; the past is history, the future is a mystery, and today is a gift, that's why they call it the present.

I want to stay by your side supporting you, until the next moment in your life when you don't want me anymore and you would want to find someone else whom might suit you better.

And why so?

Because..... I love you.

What if tomorrow never come and I didn't get the chance to tell you what my heart yearned to express through my fingertips, with all these words? I would have lost My Self in the mass of illusions and forgot what LOVE really IS.

Love is, indeed a Miracle, unconditional with no string attached. And with that unconditionally love I've given birth to ten thousands of butterflies in my tummy, swirling and spirals upwards to touch the sunbeams.

It's my Miracle to the world outside me.

Yours Faithfully

Beaming You With Love and Light

Amaia Crystallize

A Journey Through The Soul

Picture creds to Mary Jaksch

My adoration to this bittersweet journey
takes me further to where I want to be.

I've long ago abandoned my viewpoint of how
others see and think of me.

I've tasted the sweetness of the nectarine
in the center of my heart.
I am filled with euphoria by being taciturn

I see it clearly with my soul,
it is inevitable to change
what might seem to be unchangeable.

Not once would I ever force a smile on my face
to satisfy your need.

But I will gladly put a smile on your face
for the sake of happiness.

With Love and Light

Crystallize

Livet Og Kjærlighet Går Hånd i Hånd.

Det er gøy å kunne leve,
godt å kunne gråte,
og morsomt å kunne le.
Evigvarende er Livet -

i et lite øyeblikk.

Og husk;

Kjærlighet er livet -
uttrykket på mange forskjellige måter.
Livet er fascinerende, beskrevet med et ord -

Kjærlighet.

Varme hjertelige lysbølger
fra mitt hjerte til ditt hjerte,
Amaia Crystallize