Believe in Miracle

When there are noises all around me, and the world is too much, I'll let myself flow to the inner shrine of Miracles -and bathe myself in her presence. She always draws me closer to her heart-space sanctuary with her soft firm voice of golden light. She caresses and nurtures my being, while purifying my mind of it's sickness.

She knows the yearning of her beloved, as well as her own sadness. She desires nothing else for herself -but to be who she truly is. Her royalties and prestige is not of arrogance and ignorance, she never commanded anyone to heed her words. Even though sometimes it may seem otherwise, her command is only a request to strengthen the young heart to know her worth.

There's nothing she would rather say than to tell you the truth, and the truth is, she is being the truth. She's like an old grandmother who loves her children and grandchildren. At times she is being too wise for her own good. But she will rather be dimmed for being cold and careless rather than let her beloved repeat the same endless mistake to no avail.

Tell me, is there anybody out there who knows their worth who can see, really see her for who she is, because she has eyes that penetrates the illusion and sees you for who you are, she can really see behind your masks and frenzy demeanor. She sees your glorious attributes and innocence being, as her Divine Father God sees her.

Her cold demeanor is a protection shield from those who aren't aware of what they're doing to themselves, and thus carelessly harming her sensitive heart and soul. She loves herself, yes she does, you might think she's all self-centered and egoistic, but all she does is take care of her own being with charm and wits. She knows herself from the inside out and is without a doubt, that she will be judge for being cold, hard and ruthless, but if you really know her, you will understand she is taking responsibility for her own actions and faults.

She is really that simple, because she knows how important it's to keep balance and order in her universe. Her love is selfless and unique. Why would anyone harm her for being who she is? Why would anyone think that she doesn't love them for who they are? Because the truth is, she doesn't care about how they act or what they do, as long as they're happy and content with who they are from the inside out and from the outside in.

Ah, they think too much, all busy living in their head, forgetting about their heart, analyzing every word she say, every action she take. They take it way too personally when she stand up for herself and tell them what she wants and needs. She doesn't demand anything without knowing her worth, because she knows, that's why she wants to make sure you know it too.

When she kept her silence and refused to talk, it's not because she has turn her back on you, she just wants you to learn your mistake and know your worth. She knows herself better than you know her, that's why she won't let you trample on her heart-space sanctuary carelessly.

Know your worth! Know your worth! She makes no threats without a reason. If you truly know her, you will understand her Divine being, delicate yet determined when she makes up her mind. She has her butterfly essence and with her butterfly wings, she will truly flee if you're being dishonest and flaky. She meant what she said, she said what she meant, I suggest you to; be loyal and faithful 100 percent.

Take my advice and love yourself, truly love yourself for who you are, and you will understand how much she loves you. Believe in Miracle and she will show wonders in your life, this is her request, if you want her for who she is, you better abide and take the quest.

Miracle ƸӜƷ

The End of The Chase

I thought I would never love someone like I love you. The constant search for you had made me blind to the fact that you were always near enough for me to feel every inch of you. You're so tangible, I didn't know that you were so fragile until I touched you with my words. You're soaking up everything I say and think, you've become transparent, but still visible to the eyes.

My mind fooled me to think that you were hiding from me, but I was the one who didn't realize that you were always beside me and within me. The mirror I was looking at was actually you looking back at me. I feel so ashamed for not being faithful, but until now, you still forgive me. How can I make it up for the lost time where I've been looking elsewhere but into my own heart? What do I do now with the fear that I might not remember or recognize you again without the mirror that has been reflecting back at me?

Will I be able to pour out my love to you like I use to with my poetry and artistic way of writing? There's so many unanswered questions, which I actually know the answer to, but still not sure whether they're real or just my imaginations making it all up.

I know one thing is certain, your song still rings in my ears, I still hear it clearly. Are they the guiding tunes you're playing for me to hear, to let me know that you're forever faithful and loyal while you stand by my side like you always have?

I'm so sorry that I've let you down so many times by running away whenever you're close by, the only reason was because I was afraid your love would burst open my broken heart which I tried so hard to repair.

You watched over me like a little seed that I am, long to sprout and bloom, and you already knew that my longing for you was real since you never leave my side. You stood by and shielded me from reckless storms and hurdles.

Your love reached through the wall that I've build to protect myself from others opinions about me. All the while I thought I was good for nothing, but you were the one who always encouraged me to write and phrase my feelings with honesty without fear of being silly and weak. And before I knew it, your love breaks the crust around my human heart to billion of pieces till they become powder of dust. Your gentle nudge always encouraging me to look deep within my heart, and show me that the light within my heart was my own divinity and nothing else.

I always thought that you taunted me and didn't want to reveal yourself because I was not worthy of your love, but that wasn't true at all. It was the mind that held me back from exposing my love to you, and made me believe that I must prove myself worthy before you will open up your arms to embrace me into your kingdom of heaven. But it was me who has forgot that I'm not a beggar, but a princess who has been away from her own castle for far too long.

I still want to make myself worthy to be your devotee without any flaw, because I love you that much to know that you deserve everything that's not flake and false. My vessel is yours to purify and love, my dear Miracle. Because we both know, that we're one and the same. I made myself believe that I was the one who's chasing you, but in the end, I am the one who has been caught by you.

- Crystallized ƸӜƷ

The Story of My Life

I was ready to tell

the story of my life

but the ripple of tears

and the agony of my heart

wouldn't let me

I began to stutter

saying a word here and there

and all along i felt

as tender as a crystal

ready to be shattered

In this stormy sea

we call life

all the big ships

come apart

board by board

How can i survive

riding a lonely

little boat

with no oars

and no arms

My boat did finally break

by the waves

and i broke free

as i tied myself

to a single board

Though the panic is gone

i am now offended

why should i be so helpless

rising with one wave

and falling with the next

I don't know

if i am

nonexistence

while i exist

but i know for sure

when i am

i am not

but

when i am not

then i am

Now how can i be

a skeptic

about the

resurrection and

coming to life again

Since in this world

i have many times

like my own imagination

died and

been born again

That is why

after a long agonizing life

as a hunter

i finally let go and got

hunted down and became free

Ghazal 1419 Translated by Nader Khalili

A Gift Is A Gift

She doesn´t have to tell me her stories to let me know what she has been through, we are not different from one another; she has feelings, and I have that too. I love to spend my time in her presence, I used to tell her how rare the moments are once we´re alone together with no interruption from the outside world. It´s a privilege and should be enjoyed to the most. When she is off guard, I would steal a glance and lock myself into her gaze, and I could see what is hidden there behind those mysterious eyes.

Shhs, don´t tell her! She is not suppose to know that I wish the same for her, as she wish for herself. Oh, don´t bother to ask, her wish, it´s a secret that she would never tell. How do I know about her secret? To be honest, I don´t know. I assume, that she has a reason to keep it to herself, all I know is that it belongs to her and its hers all alone. Why must I make a fuss and demand to know something I already know?

When she talks and tells me her fairytales, I´m all ears, listening attentively to everything she says. I would nod and smile, and other times I would get upset and surprised!

These men, why didn´t they appreciate her devotion? Didn´t they understand she´s most beautiful when she´s free and wild? It´s absurd to think she has to be controlled and suffocate her with compromises and rules. And how could they avoid to look into her eyes and see her longing for a sacred union? Didn´t they look past her fierce act? Didn´t they understand, it´s her armour she wears to protect herself. Oh, yes, she´s strong, there´s no doubt about that, but she´s still a little girl who is easily bruised and hurt at heart. Did they, somehow mistaken her kindness for weakness?

Why didn´t they respect her space when she really needs it without fussing and fighting, and blame her for being cold and careless? Don´t they know? She cares too much without realizing that she does? It´s the world she carries on her shoulders, oh my, I wonder if she knows. Sigh, how can they possibly demand to deserve her at her best, when they couldn´t handle her when she´s at her worst? Why are they so wishy-washy when they suppose to be men who leads the way and knows her worth?

But what do I know. I´m only a woman, or more like a wombman. I am without strength to carry her on my arms, or brave enough to protect her from highway man. What can I do, when all I do is to love. My love can´t wipe away her tears or carry her burden, it can´t do a thing, when she doesn´t want to receive it, I know, its useless to use force against her precious heart. I refuse to use force against her will. That´s not how I love and surely not something I would be proud of doing.

All these things I could have done for her, and more by being her devotee, the only thing left is to pray to God; let her meet someone who knows her worth and have ambitions to rebuild this world. Let him be a fair man with justice and elegance. Let him be diplomatic and wise beyond his years. Let him seek not to hurt but to mend broken hearts and kindle a spark in peoples dream, and mostly hers, when she sees no other way to make her dream come true.

Let him be of air to cool her temper down, and makes summer breeze in her winter heart. Let him be brave enough to be himself, and sees past her human heart. Because this man must know what lies in there and seize the moment, to give her courage to be who she is meant to be, a Divine being with much love to share. Let him see the comedy in every drama, so he can uplift her spirit and ease her fear.

You thought I gave up my devotion and flee to someone else? No, that would be to risky, I wouldn´t want her to loose another person who loves her for who she is. I´ll be her devotee in another way. There´re many ways to love, and love has many ways to express itself, but giving up is not an option.

I write all this, but I´m none of this. Here take my job as her devotee, but don´t mistake this for work, it´s not work only pleasure, to love such a precious soul as hers. Don´t misunderstand me, I haven´t resigned and quit being her devotee, why would I quit, I love her can´t you see? But the gift I gave her has been returned back to me.

A gift is a gift, she´s free to do whatever she wants with it, but a gift returned is a gift without purpose and has no value to neither her or me. But I don´t have a heart to throw it away. Alas, I decide to keep it safe, inside my heart, and hope that some day, far into the future or maybe in another lifetime where we cross each others path, and I surely, without a doubt will likely fall in love with her again, offer my gift once again.

- Crystallized ƸӜƷ

Her Presence

I adore her. I don’t know if she knows that I see her with admiration. I love the way she presents herself. She is quite young, but wise for her age. There is something about her that I cant tell. She’s a rebel and quite unique in a non-flashy way. Oh, don’t take me wrong, she dresses very well, you would be stunned by her looks. It’s how she carries herself that you will be amazed at. I love the way she walks and talks. She seems like she is never in a hurry, she moves with such grace and style. She is well protected inside her opal blue and pink crystal rose-bud. She has not blossomed yet, but there is no need to hurry her, she’s best when she can take her time and bloom. You know the petals? Yes, they’re surrounding her, caressing her in a non-protective way. She is free, but it seems like she is in a maze of frustration, maybe she misunderstood the petals for being too strict against her body?

I'm not sure if she knows that the weight she carries on her shoulders is too heavy for even her. She once told me that it's something about her age. She is free to explore her options and be silly. Oh, you know that teenage rebellion stage she's in. She is self willed, but keeps her manners like royalty. Yes in my eyes, she deserves the title of queen, but she must first claim her throne. She's a princess and deep down she knows it, but if I tell her that, she will problably refuse it with a polite smile. As wise as I am, but foolish in her presence, I keep quiet and act as if she already agress with my treatment. She was made a princess and soon to be the Queen. Because you know; she deserves it after all. I treat her with respect and honor, and she knows it, but don´t mistakes me for being a servant, even though I might served her well. I am nothing but hers devotee, for her presence keeps me alive, you see?

- Crystallized ƸӜƷ

Veien Mot Fred

"Peace comes from within, do not seek it without."

- Buddha.

Det var en tid, jeg trodde ved å gjøre noe for noen er det som føre meg til min egen lykke og tilfredstillelse.

Og det var en tid, jeg trodde ved å anstrenge meg til å gjøre noe er den riktige måten å oppnå målet mitt på, men den tiden er over nå.

Det er ved å ikke anstrenge meg, men å overgi meg selv til å ikke "gjøre" noe for noen at jeg befinner meg i en tilstand der jeg lytter til mitt eget hjerte og blir inspirert til å gjøre visse handlinger.

Jeg gleder meg over det som skjer selv om det hele bare er et mysterie for meg. Hvordan livet mitt utfolder seg er akkurat slik jeg ønsker at det skal være.

Jeg er trygt og elsket, og det er ikke fordi jeg har funnet et spesifikk menneske til å ha et forhold med, men fordi jeg aksepterer meg selv akkurat slik jeg er.

Det handler ikke om velge et bestemt menneske å elske, men å elske meg selv først og fremst, det å elske alle aspektene ved meg selv og heale alle de sårene jeg har, at jeg kan begynne å elske alt og alle som krysser min vei ubetinget og uten at Egoet kommer i veien for å prøve å "gjøre" noe for å få anerkjennelse.

Jeg har ingen rett til å belære noen noe når jeg selv ikke er det jeg sier, men for øyeblikket er jeg. Akkurat slik jeg alltid har ønsket å være; Åpen og ærlig og trygt på livet.

Hvis livet ikke var en lek, hva er vitsen med å leve da? Hvis vi alle kunne ha fred i sinnet, ville jeg virkelig tro at verden hadde vært en bedre plass å leve i. Og er ikke det hva vi alle vil ha, fred?

For det er akkurat den veien jeg har valgt å gå; veien mot fred, i mitt indre.

Your Heart Is My Temple

Your heart is my temple,

a perfect place for me to bow my head and pray.

Your beauty is a poem that which I recite

and your soul is the Goddess essence I'm worshiping.

Alas, this longing will be my ticket home into your heart once again...

- Crystallized

My Love For You

My love for you is beyond measure,
Soft as clouds, sweet as candy,
Sea-deep, bottomless,
I'll create heaven on Earth for your sake,
I will love every particle in this world,
I'll start with myself, from the inside out
and outside in, 'till there's enough love
to cure every disease, lift every veil
and break any spell that binds you
to the illusion of our separation.

- Crystallized

Every Breath You Take, Is Me Breathing.

I sit by your bedside, wondering if you would catch my breath,
I don't want to close my eyes,
I'm afraid your face would fade into the dark.
If you can see yourself with my eyes while you're fast asleep,
Your mistakes will be long forgiven,
The moon beams dance bewildred through the window,
Highlights your beauty and grace,
Where they're protected behind your eyelashes.
In silence, I hear your breathing,
And every breath you take, is me breathing too.

- Crystallized ƸӜƷ

Vær Ett Med Deg Selv

Jeg banker på døren til ditt hjerte, men den er lukket. Hvem er det du frykter for? Hva er det du frykter for? Jeg er bare en del av deg som du ser i speilet. Den stemmen som du har prøvd å drukne eller gjemmes fra er bare din egen, den du er og den du ikke er.

Stopp hva du enn gjør nå, legg fra deg byrden, og lytt til den delen ved deg som ønsker å betro seg til deg. Den delen ved deg som ønsker at du skal forstå hva kjærlighet er, hva fred er og hva glede er.

Stopp opp for et øyeblikk og legg ned dine bekymringer og pust dypt inn i hjertet ditt. Gi slipp på det bildet andre har lagd opp av deg, og finn frem til din egen speilbilde, som er av lys og kjærlighet.

Tillat deg selv å være den kjærligheten du er og ikke døm deg selv for det du tror er "galt" ved deg.

Kingdom of Heaven on Earth.

Kingdom of Heaven
Kingdom of Earth,
It's all here now,
there's no need to search.

Your Ticket Home

You must remember, your longing for sacred union between heart to heart is your ticket home to the eternal realms, back to where we all came from. Therefore walk with light steps and speak with loving words. En-com-pass the world while you build bridge between heart to heart. Be at peace with yourself and radiate it towards all beings which inhabits on our dear Gaia, Mother Earth. Your Divinity is holy and true, believe in yourself and let no one takes away your power. Self-love is the most important thing you have in your life. All lives are precious, including yourself.

Medfølelser Og Lidenskap For Livet

Overlevelses innstiktet er det noe vi alle har i denne verden, men kanskje den har blitt misbrukt på det groveste uten at vi er bevisst på det?

Livet vårt har vært omringet av penger, anerkjennelse, status og berømmelse at vi selv begynner å tro at det er naturlig. Jeg mener ikke at det er feil å ha noe av disse tingene, eller opplever det. Det jeg vil frem til er at vi kanskje har glemt å leve fra hjertet vårt. Vi har latt mye av dette styrer livet vårt og vi har vel vært slitne av å tenke på hvordan vi skal kunne overleve en dag til eller hvordan vi skal spare nok til neste måned. Hvem av oss har ikke vært bekymret over hvordan vi skal klare å overleve uten penger eller imponerer våre kjære (til og med mennesker vi ikke kjenner til) for å føler oss akseptert eller elsket?

Hvor mange ganger har ikke vi lagt oss ned i senga og grublet over bagateller som hva vi skal si for å unngå noe vi egentlig ikke ønsker å gjøre, men blir på en måte presset til å gjøre ut fra frykt for å mislykke, skuffe eller ikke kunne overleve? Og har vi ikke løyet for å komme oss til målet eller sikre oss det vi trenger før noen andre tar det fra oss? Hvor mange ganger har vi gått rundt og frykte for at det ikke ville være nok til oss selv hvis vi ikke er den som kommer først i køen? Og har vi ikke blitt fristet til å stjele, og kanskje har til og med stjelt?

Har vi ikke slåss, manipulert og løyet til hverandre for å unngå å bli såret eller såre for å hevne oss mot andre? Hvor mange av oss er det ikke som har hatt eller har per i dag, sjalusi, misunnelse, grådighet, bitterhet og hat i vårt hjerte? Vi har alle sammen gått igjennom dette, og vi går nok tydeligvis gjennom dette i hverdagen våres. Vi enten opplever det selv, eller ser at noen av våre nære går den stien vi en gang har tråkket på.

Er det slik vi vil for vår neste generasjon? Selv om vi kanskje si til oss selv at vi er ikke så ille som kommer til å drepe hverandre for å kunne overleve, men har ikke det skjedd og skjer det ikke nå foran øynene våres? De småe bekymringer og grublinger kan skape store skader bare hvis vi samler det og holder oss muret inne med følelsene lenge nok.

Jeg vil med medfølelser og ærlighet innrømmer selv at jeg har vært en av mange, og er nok ikke langt ifra med å gjøre de samme feilene, men jeg er ikke noe annerledes enn resten av befolkningen. Jeg har fortsatt et ego og en mentalitet som jeg har akseptert med et nådig hjerte. Jeg har vært vitne til at mine nære venner går igjennom den samme stien som jeg selv har gått. De har blitt omringet av frustrasjon og depresjon fordi de føler at de tingene de gjorde eller gjør i dag ikke er tilfredstillende, hverken for sjelen eller sinnet deres.

Jeg skal ikke ta de som eksempler for denne artikkelen. Jeg skal ta mine egne eksempler, og hvis de leser dette, kanskje de vil finner svaret og skjønner hva jeg selv mener.

Jeg har prøvd å "gjøre" det ene etter det andre. Jeg har bytta den ene jobben etter den andre, begynt på skolen, og igjen sluttet. Jeg vil si at jeg prøvde mitt beste, men uanset hvor mye jeg prøvde var jeg ikke tilfreds. Ikke etter at jeg ble fullstendig utmattet og kollapset bokstavelig talt, (noen av dere vet det ganske godt) at jeg begynte å spørre meg selv "hvorfor" - Hvorfor har jeg valgt alle disse tingene? Hvorfor gjorde jeg som jeg gjorde?

Og som nevnt ovenfor. Alt det var fordi jeg som resten av andre, har en overlevelses innstinkt (som har gått ut av dato) og frykte for å mislykke. Redd for å skuffe eller ikke kunne bidra til samfunnet fordi jeg trodde jeg ikke var bra nok som jeg er. Noen ville nok si at det er slik livet er. Du må jobbe for å leve, tjene penger, kjøper hus, stifte familie og ha en karrierer som kan gi oss alt den statusen vi ønsker oss. Det føles ut som penger er det som sikre oss livet vårt. Det trenges mye mot og klarhet for å kunne være ærlig nok med seg selv. Og se sannheten i øynene har vært en pine, men samtidig en befrielse for hjertet.

(Jeg vil ikke inkluderer de fattigere landene inn i denne artikkelen. Jeg vil fokuserer på Norge akkurat nå. Det er befolkningen i Norge som jeg vil nå frem til. Og etter for det være opp til hver enkelt å finne ut av.)

Vi er heldige som bor her, vi kan få de hjelpene vi trenger for å kunne bidra til samfunnet for å leve et bra liv. De som er arbeidsløse for penger, de som er sykmeldt blir støttet og får behandling, barn får gratis skolebøker, studenter får stipend og lån til å kjøpe bøker for å studere, og om de hadde valgt feil yrke eller utdannelse vil de fortsatt ha mulighet til å velge igjen. Ikke nok med det, de voksner får også en mulighet til å begynne på skolen hvis de virkelig føler for det og vil det. Det er ingenting som er forsent. Så hva er det vi er misfornøyd og blir deprimert over?

Kanskje det er på tide å skifte perspektiv? Søker litt innover i oss selv for å finne svaret... og kanskje vi allerede forstår at vi er på vei fremover mot noe som er utenfor vår egen oppfatning av virkelighet.

Jeg vil snakke fra sjelenivået, hvor ord kan være begrenset, men likevel har jeg lært at det er det vi bruker for å kommunisere med hverandre.

Jeg føler at materiellene er ikke det som tilfredstille oss langsiktig, selv om det er det vi ser og tar på i hverdagen. Og jeg tror ikke at overlevelse og status er den ene hensikten med livet vårt. På sjelenivå er vi alle like. Vi har kanskje bare glemt at det er verdien i oss som gir oss status, mens lidenskapen og medlidenheten våres er med på å skape de opplevelsene vi vil ha i livet; i retning av utdannelse, yrker og diverser ting vi gjør i hverdagen, fra og med møte nye mennesker som krysser veien våres. Og visstnok er det naturlig å ha et ønske om å hjelpe andre, men det kan vi vel gjøre gjennom å elske oss selv først?

Jeg har selv blitt tæret av misfornøyelse, bekymringer, skuffelser og ikke minst frykt for å ikke kunne være til nytte for andre. For i mitt hjerte ønsker jeg inderlig med å hjelpe de som lider, emosjonelt og psykisk. Ikke bare det, men vår kjære kjære "hjem", jorda, er i stor fare for å bli uttryddet om vi fortsetter med å prosjisere våres misfornøyelse og grådighet. Når jeg mener vi, mener jeg ikke bare de som styrer landet eller de som har høyere makt enn oss som har valgt å leve en mer hverdagslige liv. Når jeg mener vi, mener jeg oss alle, inkludert meg selv.

Det er så mye som skjer nå, som vi alle er en del av, om vi er bevisst eller ubevisst på det. Vi er en dråpe av havet og vi har mer enn rett til å ta avgjørelsen selv for hvordan livet vårt skal være. Og da mener jeg at vi kanskje skal vurdere å ta tiden til å reflektere på om det er riktig å la overlevelse innstinktet, penger og status styre livet vårt og velger karrieren for oss, istedet for å følge hjertet slik at vi kan lever et mer tilfredstillende liv uten frykt for å ikke være god nok eller tjener nok til det livet vi tror vi vil ha som vil gjøre oss lykkelig. Vi er ikke mauerer som arbeider for harde livet for å kunne overleve, men vi er livet som velger å "jobbe" fra hjertet for å bidra til en bedre tilværelse her på jorda. Her i Norge.

Jeg kjenner jeg vil med tiden være mer bevisst på å la hjertet mitt leder meg, mer bevisst på de valgene jeg tar... jeg er som mange, har levd ut fra frykt, men jeg føler på meg nå at tiden for frykt er snart over.

Kanskje... vi kan la hjernen hviler litt, og la hjertet lede oss en stund fremover og se hvor den fører oss? Hvis vi frykte for vårt eget hjerte, er det vel ikke et poeng i å ha den fra utgangspunktet av.

Jeg har troen på at vi er mer enn det vi tror vi er. Vi er alle Engler, forkledd i menneskedrakt. Jeg tror medfølelser og lidenskap for livet er det vi er her for å fullføre, livet vårt er som et prosjekt vi har valgt å fullføre fra dag en. Vi kan belønne oss selv med de gode tingene, fordi vi har valgt å fortsette å leve selv etter å ha opplevd så mye motgang, smerte og sorg, for det å gi opp er ikke et valg vi ville ha tatt i en bevisst tilstand. Så hvorfor ikke ha medfølelser og lidenskap for oss selv? Vi er jo livet... er vi ikke? Vi har gjort det bra med å fortsette videre, og vi har vært trist over de som sto oss nær som har gitt opp så tidlig, kanskje vi kan unngå at det skal skje ved å være mer barmhjertig mot kroppen, sinnet og sjelen våres?

Kanskje hjertet kan gi oss råd på hvordan vi kan behandle oss selv og hverandre uten å frykte for å bli såret eller manipulert? Kanskje vi skal begynner å ta i bruk den gyldne reglen "gjør det du vil at andre skal gjøre mot deg" på alvor, og bak det kan vi tilføre, "kroppen er en instrument for livet, elsk den og livet vil belønner deg."

Home Is In Your Heart

If you just take but one sip, one glance at my love to you, and when you hear my longing heart beats, calling you to come home, you willl gladly jump into my embrace; home is in your heart.

Crystallized Butterfly

I Mitt Hjerte

Kjære Elskede,

Jeg har lenge ønsket å være en åpen bok for deg å lese. Min kjærlighet til deg er fri og flytende som en rennende foss, brusende i ekstase. Drømmen min er ganske enkelt, det er å være til hjelp når himmel på jord utfolder seg i vår nærmeste fremtid. Den hjelpen jeg kan tilby er av ren kjærlighet. Jeg ønsker ikke noe til gjengjeld enn å se deg våkne opp fra marerittene dine. Når dine øyner åpnes opp vil jeg være den første du ser. Jeg vil leder deg gjennom paradiset som vår Guddomelig Far har skapt til oss.

Min kjære, vær i undring når du ser verden rundt deg, for det er riktig mye skjønnhet og gleder hvor du enn snur deg. Lar blikket faller kjærlig mot hjertet ditt og åpne deg opp for de mulighetene som utfolder seg i dette øyeblikket. Det er i sannhet ingen smerte eller vonde drømmer her på himmelen vi kaller jorda.

Mange ting vil endrer seg nå som du er hjemme i ditt hjerte, det er kun ømme omfavnelser som omkranser deg og rokker deg til søvn når lengslen er for overveldet. Og selv om du kanskje har tatt dine illusjoner til å være din virkelighet, vil jeg med mine ord beroer og trøster deg om at glader tider er i vente.

Det er ingenting du ikke kan gjøre, bare det du ikke ønsker og vil gjøre. Og selv når du er usikker vil jeg forsikre deg om at jeg forstår deg. Jeg forlanger ikke at du skal forandre deg for å blidgjøre meg selv når du føler ditt hjerte, der du tilhører hjemme er knust. For i mitt hjerte har jeg holdt av en plass til deg i all hemmelighet, men jeg har ikke gått en dag uten å fortelle deg hvor mye jeg elsker deg, og i mitt hjerte er du alltid velkommen. Det er derfor ingen hemmelighet for hverken meg eller deg.

Jeg har gitt deg fri vilje til å velge om du vil tro eller ikke vil tro på den sannheten jeg har i mitt innerste tempel. Og i mitt dypeste, ønsker jeg at du velger å vite at du er elsket hinsides. Selv når mørket dekker over oss og ingen lys er i syne, vit at jeg er din fakkel som skinner opp veien for deg, for å lede deg tilbake, hjem igjen inn i ditt eget hjerte.

Uansett hva du mister i livet av materielle goder, vil du aldri noensinne kunne miste meg, og om du mister det eneste du har igjen i livet ditt, din kjæreste hjerte, er sjelen din en del av meg, og livet ditt vil bli født på nytt med maksimalt glede. Du vil aldri bli tapt eller borte, for din sjel er det vakreste jeg besitter i all evighet.

Din kjæreste hjerte,

Crystallized Butterfly.

Gratitude Unlock The Fullness of Life.

Dear Beloved Heart,

"Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It turns denial into acceptance, chaos into order, confusion into clarity.... It turns problems into gifts, failures into success, the unexpected into perfect timing, and mistakes into important events. Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today and creates a vision for tomorrow."

- Melodie Beattie

During hard times, remember to be thankful. It doesn't matter how small or big it is, just be grateful. If you can't find anything to be grateful about, you can start with yourself. Be grateful that you're still alive in this moment. This moment in the now is precious, because it may lead you to what you want only if you can appreciate what you have.

Think of the people who died every moment and everyday around the globe, I think they would like to have a second chance to live again, just to finish what they came here to do, but couldn't, because they died too soon, without knowing that they were blessed in the first place.Why is it a blessing to be alive?

Well, you're the creator of your own life, and whoever put you here, has given you a chance to create your life, just the way you want it too. Yeah, I say, just the way you want it. Either good or bad, you're the one creating everything. Maybe you didn't know that, but now you know. Why?

Because I can see no one can create your life better than you. You're co-creating with God. He gave you the law of attraction and the universal laws to make it easier to follow.

One of the golden rule is:

"Do unto others as you would have them do unto you."

The law of attraction is very known. It's the tools for you to create what you want to experience. Rich thought with good feelings attract wealth in your life, poor thoughts with bad feelings attract poverty. It doesn't have to be about money alone. It can be about others as good friendship, a loveling family, or you will get something for free etc.

I suggest you to search or read about the law of attraction by Jerry and Esther Hicks. They have helped me to see more options to choose. You will see possibilites when your heart is more open. The information on how to attract what you want instead of attracting what you don't want. It's better to be aware than unaware and getting upset, but in the end, it's all up to you.

Share the love that you have inside of you, find the one thing that you love and feels it. And go from there to start sharing your love and be grateful for a new day with new possibilities to start over again. Forget what you did wrong in your past, remember the mistakes you made and find an opportunity to make up for the lost time.

Don't worry to much about your future, just stay in the present moment and make sure you don't miss a single thing, because they will never come back again. Focus your mind in the now moment, and stay in awe and amazement. Look at the stars, moon, sun and every little wonder around you. I request you, do it for yourself. If you really love your daughter, your friend, your mom, your dad ... your job, your school, your home, your shoes... do it for them, and at least do it for YOUR SELF. Whatever it is, it's unconditional love.

It's doesn't matter what you love, just share that love. It's possible to love everything and everyone, and most importantly, IT'S POSSIBLE TO LOVE YOURSELF, for Who You Are even though you might think you're a bad person but no one is really bad to the core. In God's eyes, you're just like innocent children.

Love your Self. Life isn't that gloomy and dark as you think it is. Life is wonderful and mysterious! I LOVE LIFE, and I aim to make my heart wider. I want to open it up even more, so I'll have the whole globe within my heart.

I love to love, to bring peace and joy, and to see people smile. I just love it.

Ps: Even tho you might be sad, angry or bitter, it's ok, love yourself for that matter. They're just feelings anyway, they come and go, the one that's behind them don't care that much what you do, but only how you feel, and I mean your heart, it just want to love and to be like a child.

Your heart wants you to play and laugh a little more. It wants you to be curious about life and about the world. Whenever I ask my heart it always answer me.

I know that there're much confusion when you try to figure out thing with your mind, but when I concentrate with my heart, it always find the solution that benefits everyone involved. The most important thing is love, and not to forget to love yourself.

And when you find it hard to do big thing in a great way, you can always start with the small thing. Take babystep if it is necessarily. Just take it on step at a time, or a day day at a time. One intention at a time. Don't loose faith in yourself. You're great and will always be. And whether you know it or not, even if it doesn't look like it on the surface, in your core, in the bottom of your heart and soul, you will find the most increadible person you will ever know.

Make your dreams come true, fulfill it. I think your children would rather fulfill theirs dream when they get older, I remember how awful it was to try to fulfill my parents dream. I didn't want to, but I was afraid to disappoint them... I wasted so much time and energy, but I'm glad that I figured it out now, than later. And wouldn't it be better to live the life you want to live, than living someone else's life? May love be your way of living, and know that you're loved and cared for.

Remember, you've the whole world under your feet.

With Love, Crystallize.

From My Deepest Well

Dear Beloved Heart,

It has been a while since I sat down and write to you. Today, I want to describe myself in one word, love. Yes, love, as a conduit for love to flourish, I've taken myself to many different roads in life. Sometime I find it hard to make life worth living, and other times, I find it pretty easy. The easy part is that I'm thinking less and live more, and the hardest part is thinking too much and forget living.

I'm not always there, but when I am, I know that I can move myself from duality and analysed less than I used to do. I know one thing for sure, that life is full of surprises and there are many possibilities that prevent itself to me when I live in the NOW. I keep learning new things, and to be here on earth, require me to be more grounded, to pull more lights, to accept myself fully as a member of the Family of light.

I do have hopes and dreams. I cheer for you who might not always see the light, but as you may know, you've come to the place you are now, is not only luck. You have more potential than you think. You've done great in life, being angels human.

I don't want to complicate things, because it makes too much drama. But even when you're in the midst of drama, enjoy it to the fullest. Enjoy your life to the fullest, and know that you've done your best or doing your best right now right here. These words help me to understand why there're density and why so much people lived without noticing the great thing about themselves. I know it is because we don't appreciate ourselves enough and love ourselves. Truly love ourselves for who we are.

And the means of Who We Are, is to accept ourselves in the now moment, whether we are happy or unhappy. I suggest you to think about who you are, maybe asking yourself what you can be for yourself, so that you can be for other. I know we all have different opinions, and I share with you my opinions from my heart-space sanctuary. I don't mean to dump it all on you and lecturing about what you've done and should do.

I wish you the best, from my deepest well.

Love,
Crystallize

A Cup Of Coffe

Dear Beloved Heart,

There´re so much to be grateful about life, even those smallest thing as to drink a cup of coffe in the morning. Enjoying the scent and taste. In a cup big enough to hold around and feels the warmth from that cup of coffe. To just live, a moment at a time. Enjoying, delighted before it´s over.

Love Crystallize

Let Love Flourish

Dear Heart,

Now that I can't do anything for myself,
What can I do for the world?
I asked myself that,

and the answer came like a rushing arrow -

Be the conduit for love to flourish.

With Love,

Crystallize

Love Your Neighbor As Yourself

Dear Heart,

It's humanly to be vulnerable and divinely to let it flow through the body. And even though people see you walking confidently and act cold from the outside, doesn't mean that you can not be a softy from the inside. Irriation might arise inside you if you're not willing to accept that aspect of you. And why couldn't you, when that soft side is your feminine energy. You can view it as a blessing and know that you're on your way to learn to be a divine being with human flesh with emotions and feelings.

I think if we just live from our mind, we would go dense and become a manic robot without hopes and dreams. I used to suppress my feelings before my transformation and when someone push my button I would go boom and cost everyone around me to suffer from my anger. Because of that I've learn to be more gentle with myself, and let people know how I feel and set boundaries. There're many ways to let people know how you feel, it doesn't need to be anything abusive.

When someone pushes your button, be alert, you can either accept the situation or let them know how you feel and set boundary, the worst thing you can do to yourself and people around you is to stuff everything inside you. Some button are not to be push to many times, you can go error, and who knows what you might do. I think that is why we have murder, and people who act from anger can kill and before they know what they've done, it would be too late.

I remember one time when I was younger, I had a fight with my babysister and her friends. They joined together and bullied me, and I was so angry that I gave her a slap in the face with full force. Oh my, that made her cried so much that it broke my heart! I never thought I would do something like that, but I guess I had a lot of negatives emotions inside me that time.

Well, it's normal to be angry, but since I am awake to the truth, anger is only there to teach us how to be more gentle with ourselves. We all are one, and if we are aware enough with our aggresion we will prevent it from being abusive or getting to the point of violence.

My point is, it's normal to be angry or upset, but let it out in form of tears or creative outlet is much better than when you suppress it all the time. Perhaps we could kill if we're angry enough. Whenever I read about someone who killed another from anger, I felt him right away and gets compassionated, and I will give them my blessing and hope that they would learn from their action.

Perhaps you don't understand why I'm being like that towards a murder, but the truth is -

“Hatred does not cease by hatred, but only by love; this is the eternal rule.”

- Buddha

And since we are all one, then it's logic to understand that whatever thoughts or actions we're given to another, will come back to us, ten folds. I always gets passionated when I read the news about people dying and killing each other, because my desire to raise my consciouness and to heal the world increase more and more. It's not up to me to judge, when I judge others, I'm judging myself, it limits me to feel good about myself.

It's not my busniess what other are doing with their life, how they live are up to them, and whatever happens to them are their lessons. What I do with my life and what happens to me is my busniess. I don't want to go bankrupt by tending to others busniess and neglects my own.

And shall we not love our neighbor as ourselves?

"Love your neighbor as yourself"

- Jesus

All I know, is that I would like to honor my feelings and believe in them to be true, and whenever I release them, I know that I'll be more at ease. I know that my feelings are my own, and I would rather release them and take responsibility for my reaction than blaming someone for putting it in me.

But I've learn to respond to people more than reacting without questioned them first and I truely believe that with time all wounds will heal. Even though it may take times to heal, but I know the best time to start is now... one day we will fully be ourselves enough to stand infront of our beloved and be strong enough to take care of him/her and let they know that we love them as who they are, without being afraid to show them our vulnerability.

But before that, we have a lot of work to do (BEing). We needs to tend to our own busniess and runs it as a boss running our own company. The only boss and the only employee is us anyway.

I hope my words resonate with your heart.

With much love and care,

Your beloved SiStar Crystallize.

Get Back Up

Dear Beloved Heart,

George Burns says;

"Failure is only a fact when you give up. Everyone gets knocked down, the question is: Will you get back up?"

And he is right.

Sometimes is seems to be more easier to just lie around and wait for someone to come and save you from your own misery, but if you're determined to just stay down, then no one can help you. Because no matter who's coming to save you, you will just keep laying there waiting to be lead and waiting for them to dictated you how you should live your life.

And yes, that is possible, it depends on how long you're willing to let someone else runs the show for you. But I'm here to tell you that it's way better for you to live your life the way you want it, than letting someone telling you how to live it. It's never to late to get back up and be your own hero.

It's also possible to get back up, no matter what. Because the show must go on, and let it go on and on and on, until one day you're not here on planet earth anymore, and your soul goes back to where it belong. Live your life the way you want to live it, be the change you want to see in the world. And I mean, not the change people want you to be, but the CHANGE YOU want to see in the world.

Whatever they say, everyone has their opinions and beliefs, I just hope that it won't make you scared and stop you from being Who You Are. I hope you won't take it personally and condemn yourself. I hope you won't condemn other either, but even though you do, remember you're learning from your own experiences. And the same goes for me. I'm learning, not to jugde myself, my actions and my words.

"Judge not, that ye be not judged. For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye meet, it shall be measured to you again. And why beholdest thou the mote that is in thy brother’s eye, but considerest not the beam that is in thine own eye?"

- Matthew 7:1-3

Fear and jugdment creates separation, while love brings us together. You can either be your own bestfriend, or your worst enemy.

You're a hero and heroine. Soon you will notice, that no one can live your life better than you do.

Remember tha I'm beaming you with my love and light, always.

Crystallize.

Fra Fantasi Til Virkelighet

Kjære Elskede Hjerte,

Strever du med å finne deg selv i en sjø av mennesker i denne såkalte verden vi kaller jorda? Har du kanskje vært som meg, levd etter andres normer og relger, en duplikasjon av den orginalen, som ikke er fullstendig din"copyright"? Kanskje den du dupliseres av var ikke orginalen selv?

Jeg har i lang tid definert meg selv fra forskjellige roller som har blitt tilegnet meg, av hundre og muligens billionvis av mennesker, hendelser og ting.

Jeg har gjentatte ganger funnet meg selv, men den livslange programmeringen som har blitt lagret i min underbevissthet fikk meg stadig til å glemmer meg selv, igjen og igjen.

Det er den programmeringen som kalles for oppdragelse, det er fra siden vi var liten av. Et program som kanskje har gått ut av dato, og fra tid til en annen trenger en ny oppdatering, for det er nå en ny tid i vente, sikkert nok ikke bare for meg, men for oss alle.

Hva gjør den programmen med oss? Jeg har lenge utforsket hva den har gjort med og uheldigvis mot meg, og før det er forsent til å angre, har jeg nå lært å følge min intuisjon, impulsiviteten og å være mer fleksibelt. Trist men sant, så har den ødelagt mye for meg mer enn den har hjulpet meg, men mirakuløst nok, har den visst gitt meg tilbake til meg selv igjen.

Det er sånne ting som ikke kan endres på eller hviskes vekk fra hukommelsen, men likevel så har jeg funnet mot og håp nok til å akseptere det og gjøre mitt beste ved å gjøre de tingene jeg ikke fikk gjort den gangen.

Programmet kan få deg til å gjøre ting du sikkert nok ikke ville ha gjort, hvis du hadde husket Hvem Du Var fra utgangspunktet av, men hele mysteriet med å bli født til denne verden er å gjenvinne medlidenheten og være menneskelig nok til å endre på fortidens feiltagelse.

Å være menneske er visst nok ikke lett. Ihvertfall ikke som jeg hadde opplevd det. Det var som å bli dratt i to forskjellige retninger på en og samme tid. Jeg har blitt oppdratt til å ikke juge, men har likevel blitt jugd til. Jeg har blitt oppdratt til å ta vare på andre, men ble aldri tatt vare på, ihvertfall ikke slikt det skulle ha vært eller slikt jeg virkelig ønsket det.

Jeg har blitt oppdratt til å skjule følelsene mine, men fikk stadig beskjed om at det var umulig å forstå seg på meg. Og da jeg først viste følelsene mine og ordla det, ble jeg angrepet for å være respektløs eller uærlig.

Hvordan er det mulig å leve opp til et så forvrengt forbilde, der det er konstant forvirring på moralen?

Det har ikke gjort ting lettere for oppveksten heller, når jeg selv oppdaget at de fleste mennesker oppfører seg slik. De hevder som regel å ha moraler, preferanser og lever stolt opp til sine standarder og normer, men er ignorant til sine egne motsetninger og følelser.

Nei, å være menneske skal ikke være lett, for jeg selv følte at jeg var slik. Det har ikke vært lett for hverken kroppen og sjelen å finne seg til rette når tankene plyndret alt den gleden ved å leve.

Jeg har kommet så langt som å konkludere at jeg har min egen unike levemåte, som hverken er lik og kommer ikke til å være lik andre på noen måter. Det er umulig å ha noen som er lik meg, på personlighet og utseende vel? Selv om jeg hadde hatt en eneggede tvilling søster, ville hun muligens vært noe helt for seg selv.

Du lurer sikkert nok på Hvem Du Er utifra det jeg har skrevet her (og kanskje ikke), men det er et mysterie som du selv kan ha gleden med å finne ut av. Jeg kan forklare deg det, men jeg kan ikke forstå det for deg.

Dessuten så har jeg fått nok av å vente på at du skal forstå det og å gi deg svar på en sølvfat. Ikke misforstå meg, jeg har ikke gitt opp håpet på at du en dag kommer til å finne ut av det, jeg vet du vil, men det er nok en timing for alt, inkludert når du endelig har skjønt det. Og når den tiden kommer, vil jeg være klar til å si "I told you so." (Just kidding!)

Vi alle har forskjellige meninger og definisjoner på hvordan livet skal leves. Finn den måten som passer deg best, men ikke forvent at livet vil forbli det samme i all evighet, grunnet er at forandringer er selveste essensen i å leve.

Gir det deg noen mening? Nei, det skjønte jeg ikke noe særlig heller og kommer nok aldri til å "skjønne" det, men velkommen etter! Verden er full av kontraster, berg og dal baner. Du kan velge å surfe med, sleng deg med på bølgen, eller ikke. Det er opp til deg hva du gjør med livet ditt, muligens det eneste du kan få gjort noe med. For hvilken rett har du å velge for andre?

Selv den som alltid har blitt ledet, vil en dag innser at han/hun faktisk ønsker å velge noe annet, helt for seg selv; selvstendigheten til å være en hel menneske med rettigheter til å leve slik de selv ønsker.

Kanskje derfor vi har noe som kalles for drømmer, og håpet på et "bedre liv." Og hva betyr et "bedre liv" for deg? For meg betyr det å være orginalen, der livet mitt er en copyright og ikke en duplikasjon av andres resultater og konklusjoner.

Den firkantete boksen min vil nok ekspanderes så lenge jeg tørr å utforske og legger tvilen til side ved å følge magefølelsen min. Kanskje den ikke er fullt ut firkantete som jeg trodde den var. For du vet hva de sier, virkeligheten er ikke det samme som du tror!

(Ja, jeg vet, det høres lett ut, men det skal ikke være så enkelt som alle Mestrene før oss hevder det. Og kanskje det faktisk er SÅ ENKELT at det er umulig å tro på er sant!?)

Morsooooom!

Din Elskede SøStjerne,

Crystallized Butterfly

There's I

Dearest Heart,

I'm lying around,
waiting for someone to save me.
But there was no one else there
to save me, but me.

Who's out there looking in,
and who's inside looking out.

Behind that dark dark clouds
there's a blue blue sky.
Behind every mask,
there's a face to hide.

An Angel whispered sofly in my ear
and ignited my passion to keep on living.
Not for the sake of living alone, but to
stand up from where I lie,
and fly towards the blue blue sky.

There was someone there to save me after all.
That someone is, I.

With much love from
My butterfly essence.

Vær Original

"You were born an original. Don't die a copy."

— John Mason

Kjære Elskede Hjerte,

En dalende snufnøgg er ikke lik de tusen andre snøfnuggene. Hvis du søker om det, vil du snart oppdager at ingen snøfnugger er identisk like, men de alle har noe tilfelles. Og vet du hva det er? De er alle snøfnugger.

Og slik er vi også. Hvert enkelt individ er unik på hver sin måte. Vi er forskjellige fra utsiden. Vi ser annerledes ut utseendemessig, vi har forskjellige personligheter og interesser, men vi er like på innsiden. Det er våre likhetstrekk.

La oss gjør det enda enklere. Vi har to øyner, en nese, to ører og en munn. Vi har en kropp som kommer i forskjellige størrelse og bredde, men likevel, vi har en ting tilfelles. Vårt hjerte.

Med den føler vi medlidenhet med hverandre, med den føler vi kjærlighet for hverandre, med den føler vi glede, sorg, tristhet, sinne og bitterhet. Hvis den andre føler det, vil vi også føler det. Vi forstår oss på hverandre ikke med ord, men med følelser.

Lytt med følelsene dine, lytt til det de føler og ikke bare hva de sier. Du kan si en ting, men mener noe annet. Ord er et verktøy, men den beste verktøyet vi har fått, er følelsene våres. Vi kan smile til hverandre og se hverandre inn i øynene og det hadde vært nok.

Du er unik, det er kun et eksemplar av deg. Vær deg selv, syng den musikken ditt hjerte lengte å spille for deg å høre. Det er ikke noe galt å ha et mål som alle andre, men gjør det på din måte. Vær autentisk, unik og kreativ i hvordan du fullføre ting.

Det er i orden, for det er mange måter å komme seg til målet, men bruk den måten du føles er mest komfortabel for deg, gå, tusle, lek deg mot målet ditt, skritt for skritt. Vær det du allerede vil bli, ikke gjør det for å bli noen, for du er allerede så unik at du er NOEN. Og det er lenge før du kom hit på jorda, lenge før noen fortelle deg hvem du er. Lenge før du vet ordet av det.

Du er og vil alltid være unik!

Varme Omfavnelser,

Crystallized }°{

A Prayer From The Heart

Dear Lord

I thank you for giving me strength and courage to continue on my path. May I be humble, yet confidence in who I am. May I always care for other sincerly and without judgment. May I love myself unconditionally, so I can love my fellow being unconditionally. May my doing spring from being, from light and from love.

Amen

Crystallize

A Melancholy Song

I hear the sound of raindrops

Falling on my rooftop

As I watch out the window

Gazing upon the sky,

My eyes wander,

In search after the moon

Raindrops sing a melancholy song

For my heartfelt longing

I cannot see the moon anywhere

Thunder and lightning arouse the storm to come

I guess the moon is shying away behind

That dark veil of the clouds tonight

Raindrops still falling down on my rooftop

It sings a melancholy song for my heartfelt longing

- Crystallized ƸӜƷ

My Twin Flame Soulmate

My Dearest Beloved

I danced in the shadow,

and I leap through the light,

waiting patiently

for you to come each night.

I wait attentively

for your every footstep,

my breath draws

you closer to my heart,

I've know you many eon

before this journey started.

I've seen your beautiful face

in countless of mirrors

with each mirror

I'm drawned closer to you.

When you're near me,

I'm sure I'll remember

that we are meant to be.

I'll recognize your heartbeats,

because yours is mine.

Yours Faithfully,

Twin Flame soulmate.

Childhood Dreams

Dearest Heart & Soul,

Reach out your hand

and take mine in yours,

don't drag or pull it back.

Let me hold your hand

and lead you to my secret place.

Don't be afraid.

I hold your hand tightly

and gently squeeze it slightly.

Can you feel it?

This nostalgia;

childhood dreams in boxes.

I'm mesmerized.

With Love,

Your Inner Child.

Eternal Love

Dear Beloved Heart,

Love came and broke the shell
I used to hide myself into
when darkness surrounded my heart.
I can no longer recall the days,
where I let myself fall,
Lonely days, where I fell into the sea of emptiness
where I would find myself in my own arms
cradling myself to sleep.

The more I walk this path called enlightenment,
the more I leave the outside world to itself.
I crave to taste the ecstasy
of the mysterious, we call life,
while leaving the rainbow untouched
I've found my inner light.

I dreamt of a love bigger than myself,
a love which succed all else,
a love so warm and tender that it melts
away the winter in my beloved's heart.
Love cracks my heart open for the light
to merge and penetrate my whole being,
so I can walk as One,
with light and love -
into the infinite.

Love your Soul.

Every Moment Is A New Moment

Dearest Heart,

Every moment of life, is a new moment with numerous of possibilities to choose, to decide and to give way to love. Another moment living fully from the heart and to sip its joy and to be thankful for another breath taken.

How is your breathing? Are you breathing deep enough? Do you give way to your heart to exalt you to a better life? Or do you chase the rainbrown and daydreaming vividly of the life you would want to have but don't dare to live?

What are you waiting for? For the sky to turn grey and you can no longer take another breath, to fully live in this moment of your life? How many moments do you really remember in one day, and really enjoyed it? Without complaining or finding another excuse for not living the life you dreamt of? To feel free to do whatever your heart delight, to rest on a bench to watch the landscape, or just basking in the sun for ONE whole moment, and breath in life that is given to you in this very, very moment?

There're many moments in one day, if you can live each moment anew, you will remember the whole day as worthwhile, and know deep down in your heart, you needs nothing. You don't need anything, which you think will make you happy. All these "things", that you think might make you more secure of a future that might not be there at all. Your future is NOW. As you be in this moment, deep inside you, you have all the power you can have to make your dreams come true. Not in doing alone, but first in being, then the doing will come.

Do you think that I write this, just to write? I'm not doing this, I'm being and the words flows from my heart through my fingers and onto this page.

I'm talking to your heart, your heart will answer all the questions, and before you know it, you would breathe, and be in silence to give way to your own heart to exalt you to live the life it wants you to live. Peaceful, happy, joyfully and rich. A content life, without adding "things" to your being and gets heavy with duties. Rich not with money but with multiply choices to decide for yourself, what is BEST for you, and your heart knows it very well.

"Be still and know that I am God." (Psalm 46:10)

Not a God of religions, but a God of Love. A free loving God. But that doesn't matter. God wants you to remember Him with your heart, not with your mind. God wants you, to believe in your Self, in your heart, because He dwells in your heart as well as you're dwelling in His. He carry your heart, and hide His Self for the world, but it's not meant to be kept as a secret. His heart, it's meant to be given away, to you, He's IN your heart.

I Carry Your Heart

I carry your heart with me (I carry it in

my heart) I am never without it (anywhere

I go you go, my dear; and whatever is done

by only me is your doing, my darling) I fear

no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) I want

no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)

and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant

and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows

(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud

and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows

higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)

and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart)

- E.E Cummings

Now use it well and wise, before you waste another heart beat, to chase the rainbow and waiting for your lifeforce energy to be drained, and finding another excuse not to listen to your heart at this very moment.

Be kind to yourself and generous to your heart, make a day for listening to its wisdom and plea, and comtemplating upon the truth it has given you.

With Love,

Crystallized }°{