New Year's Resolution.

Hi everyone, so I just sit here one day before new year's eve, thinking that I could jot down some of my new years resolution just so I will remember it before the year 2015 end. 

First and foremost, I want to quit smoking (sadly I haven't manage to quit yet). What I think to do is to contact my doctor and see if she could help me. And the second thing is; I want to stay sober the whole year without touching a single drop of alcohol. I'm not an alcoholic or addicted to alcohol, it's just that I'm not so fond of partying and drinking anymore, so it's not a problem to quit, but maybe I have to explain to a few people on why I don't want to drink anymore. Let's see how it goes. 

I think I will be a better person by the end of 2016, since I want to love myself more. Self love is as I said very important if you want to stay happy. I will do my best to not criticize myself for things I can't do and even if I caught myself in condemning people for what they do, I will not condemn myself for it. I'm not saying that it's OK to condemn people, but I mean, everyone of us have in some time judge people for what they do or say etc, it's kind of normal to think that way, but it could be prevented if we understand ourselves better and that we see people with our heart and not our ego, better yet, as a soul seeing another soul.

I will do my best to socialize with positive people, and help those who are depress and pessimistic (not sure if they want help, but if anyone that comes to me, I will make sure they leave happier.) I have been told that I'm a good listener, that my friends really find comfort in what I share. They mean it makes them feel at ease when they talk to me about theirs problems. I'm more of a person who find solution to a problem rather than pitying myself and play the victim for my problems and situations, therefor I will find a solution for my friends if they needs me to help them with their problems and see things with new eyes. 

I want to be more honest, not in a brutal way, but I will do my best to tell the truth as I see it and not what people want to hear. Honesty is the best policy. It's hard not to tell white lies, but it's not impossible to be completely honest about something. 

Last but not least, I want to keep my conscious clean, I want to vibrate in a higher frequency. I feel 2016 will be an exciting year. 2nd wave of ascension is on march 2016. So I have to prepared myself for that time so I can help more people to elevate their frequency. It's hard enough right now for most people to deal with their emotions. Seems like more and more people are awaken. It could be terrifying for them to suddenly feel different than what they use to feel. 

Looking back I have been experience a lot of up and downs, but it just helped me seeing things in a different perspective. I have learn to listen to my feelings, love a little more, stay positive and become happier with the choice I make. And all my connection with people have brought me to a higher level of understanding. I think I'm equipped to bring light to the world, and help levitate the frequency of unconditional love. All I'm waiting now is for my Twin Flame to come back into my life and help me to help bring more love and light to the earth and its inhabitant. 

New life will begin shortly... might as well begin now. 

The list: 

1) Quit smoking

2) Quit drinking alcohol

3) Self Love

4) Be more honest

5) Help people

6) Socialize with positive people

7) Declutter and vibrate on a higher frequency

Stay tune for more to come. I really want to share my experience with everyone who cross my path. If you have similar experience or anything you want to share, I'm ready to listen! 

Blessings.

Miracle

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas, and soon happy new year! My christmas was spent with lots of silence and some noodles pack. To be more specific, it was mom who cook fried noodles for us. And now christmas is over and new year is ahead. My new year resolution is to love myself more and do my best to quit smoking. I don't really want to quit, but because of an important reason I have to quit. Not to mention that it's bad for my health so quitting is really a must anyway.

I don't know what else I should talk about today, I mean, everything happen for a reason, and I don't really know the reason just yet, so I will probably just write whatever comes to mind (or not writing at all?) Well, it's holiday, everyone should smile a lot more and do good deeds, spent time with your family and friends, or with strangers who is alone this holiday. How do you spent your holiday? I would love if you share your story, or anything that can lift my spirit up a little. 

I'm not sad, but, I'm quite tired of the 3D love relationship. The confusion and frustration of wanting someone, but can't have them. That's why I decide I'm gonna dedicate the entire time cultivating the 5D vibrational unconditional love from now on. I'm not sure how I will do that, but maybe I just need to be more aware of my action and my thoughts. 

I'm sorry, this post is rather boring to read. But I really don't know what I should write about... I don't have much to share, so. I think I better check in another time, maybe I will come up with some more interesting story or something new to share. 

Spent your holiday with great love and joy everyone.

Blessings

Miracle 

Our Beliefs Creates Our Reality

Have you ever ponder about love? Have you ever ask yourself what love is? I don't completely know what love is, even though I sure have been in love many times, but maybe it was more like attraction than love, this is something I still ponder about. There are many types of love in this world; parents love to their children, siblings love, couples love, love for humanity, love for animals. All these kinds of love could boil down to Union Love for all, but these types of love are not at all difficult to understand as couples love. I'm sure we all adults and teenagers has a problem to understand this kind of love. Do we maybe confuse love with attraction?

Why does the belief of this kind of love make it so difficult to understand? I mean, why when we fall in love with someone, and after being in relationship or even before being with them all these emotions start to rise above the surface and make it difficult to attain peace?  My beliefs about relationship is that you can only love one person at a time and I shouldn't be playing with people's feelings, and that they should show their love through actions if they really loves me or behave in a certain way that shows their love is true. These beliefs are not that bad as the belief of many others who think that once they are with someone, their partner become a property. 

I have a habit of thinking wrongly that when the person I like would stop liking me because something seems to change in their behavior or they seems to detach themselves from me. I had the beliefs of being invaluable and unworthy thus thinking that I'm not loved or worth to be like from someone else. Emotions and feelings start to rise and peace are being rob off. It's so damn hard sometimes not to leave the "thinking" aside, overanalyze and overthinking, but I learn over time that I eventually have to change my beliefs. 

In our beliefs arise feelings, from feelings to action, from action to a result or maybe a consequence. And because of our beliefs we have to take responsibility for our reaction and consequences. I know that in changing my beliefs about myself will help me to experience love in a new way. I'm not saying that what I do will work for you, but as I had gone through the process of changing my beliefs and love myself more, I have been able to relax more and not over dramatize the situation. In the end, I think that couples love seems difficult because we can't escape from the feelings that rise above the surface. Our partner didn't place those feelings inside of us, those feelings were already there for us to acknowledge them, and maybe that's why it seems so difficult to understand our partner when we are in the midts of the storm that rages inside of us. 

Relationship serve a purpose in our lives, whether good or bad, they are a good way for us to finally find all the barriers that kept us from love. We could either act as a victim or rise above it and claim our power to change ourselves. Beliefs are also possible to change, but you have to be strong willed and determined once you want to change your beliefs. When your beliefs start to trouble you face it head on, and examine it carefully if what you believe in is true or not, don't forget that what you resist presist and what you look at will disappear. 

Do your best to attain peace.

Blessings

Miracle

An Ongoing Process

As we go through darkness and become more positive, and suddenly there seems to be more shit coming up than ever- don't be afraid if it does. Because they have to come up in order for you to shed more light on it, things need to clear out, and they need to be acknowledge. 

The process of loving yourself is ongoing, there are no shortcuts, you have to do the work in order to be more happy in life. It's your responsibility anyway, to feel happy and content. I'm so glad that my words of comfort and advice can help you, but believe it or not, I have been through deep shit and now I'm able to finally be more happy about myself and content in some degree. Sure there are things that bugged me and made my day a living hell, but that is something temporarily, and natural, because like a pendulum, our lives swayed from right to left, as a ball been throwing up needs to come down. Our feelings are reflection of our thoughts, the things that bugged me are things that help me to measure how far I have climb the ladder. How far in life I have come. 

When you give a negative thought your attention, remember that you are able to switch it to a positive thought, because if you are able to give your thoughts your attention, it means you are more aware of what you think and when you are more aware of what you think, then it's easier for you to choose a better thought. If you struggle with that, then I can recommend you to seek out Louise L Hay, she has a lot of good affirmations you can use to change your negative thoughts to better and positive one.

Time is speeding up and the energy is increasing in frequency, things are likely to manifest faster. So it's up to you what you want to manifest. I do understand that it's not always easy to suddenly change your mindset, it takes me years before I can master it, and still I'm puzzled about it, because sometimes I feel that I'm in need of love and acceptance from the one I love. It's not easy to just be happy when you actually want things to be in some sort of way for your own benefit, but you can't always have what you want, so there are of course disappointment in it. You have to learn to forgive yourself when you are angry about yourself because you don't feel the way you think you should. Sometimes it's ok to feel what you feel. Express your feelings and don't blame yourself and even if you do, don't criticize yourself for it. Don't judge yourself and think you are a bad person for feeling in some certain way because you are afraid people won't accept or love you for reacting or expressing how you are feeling. 

I do understand it's hard to explain sometimes why you feel the way you feel, but if you don't let out the steam, you will feel more horrible, because then you are locked inside a box you aren't able to get out of. I think it's more healthy to express your emotions/feelings than locked them inside, if you aren't able to tell the person who you have some sort of problems with, then you can try and talk about it with your friends or someone you know who is a good listener, some who doesn't judge what you have to tell, maybe they can give you another perspective you can look at so you won't be stuck in one way of thinking. There are many way of releasing those emotions, you just need to find a way that suits you the best. 

For me, it helps to cry and write about it, or talking to my bestfriend who I know won't judge me for the way I'm feeling or thinking. She would tell me what I need to hear and be honest about it. I'm thankful for having her as my bestfriend. I think we all need one or two friends who is loyal to us and treat us with respect and don't judge us for being who we are. But to have those kind of friends we also need to be somewhat like that in order to attract them in our lives and we need to be a bestfriend for ourselves too, so that we can have a better and healthier relationship with ourselves. 

I know sometimes you might think it's stupid for what you feel, but if someone talk about those feelings to you, would you think that they are stupid? Try to see and comfort yourself as your bestfriend would or better yet, see yourself as God sees you, He will likely see you as the innocent child of His. We all needs to see each other as souls, in order to maintain peace and harmony, that sometimes things happen for a reason, and we all do our best from the abilities we have. People don't always know why they are saying or doing what seems to harm others, forgive them, they know not what they do. Forgive yourself, for in God's eyes you are pure and innocent soul who are going through an evolution. 

Take what you can from this post, but leave whatever that doesn't seems right for you, I don't intend to preach, because I don't think preaching will do any good if it doesn't come from the heart. Mostly, believe in yourself rather than believing in a truth that has been experienced by someone else. Sometimes experiences are somewhat different because we all have different perceptions and we all have different truth about something we believe in. Next time, if I have the inspiration, I will try and write about beliefs. Meanwhile, have a splendid weekend. 

Blessings

Miracle. 

Within

The world technologies are incredible awesome, but we must not forget the little things that doesn't require electricities. I'm also a person who have been addicted to my smartphone and the internet, simply because I'm like everyone else living in the 20th centuries. The things that remind me of those simple little things are reading and watching inspirational movies. 

Tonight I stayed up and watch "The Little Prince 2015". An inspirational animation. It's a story about a little girl who been taught to follow the schedule and programs her mother have made for her, and because of that she become a little stiff like the rest of everyone else. She memories math and do maths all day just to get in to this particular school, and forget about having fun and playing like a child should. Her mother always worked late and aren't much at home to watch over her. Luckily they moved to a neighborhood where an old man live in this big and old house unlike the rest of the neighbor and their house. One day an accident happened where the old man tried to start his plane, made the propell to bounced right into the little girl's house and her mother's. And one evening when he sat on the roof top and the little girl sat in her room doing math, he flew a paper plane right into her's window. She was perplexed at first, but with curiosity she open the paper plane where there was drawings and a story about the little prince, then on, they established a connection. I don't want to be a spoiler, if you are curious, I recommend you to watch it. 

After watching it, I become inspired to write this post. The movie really make me understand that things that is invisible to the eyes can be felt with the heart. I must remember that I'm here for a reason, even though I might not understand the reason as for now, but I must never forget the happiness and the joy I experienced 5 years ago. It's the wake-up call I mentioned in my late post. To remember my identity and finally understand the love of my higher self was truly a blessing, and not just that, I did also witness my own soul in meditation. It was truly amazing to could see your soul even for a brief moment.

Every experience we have in this life is quite unique, whether good or bad, we can either learn from it or just for the sake of experiences, and because of those experiences we remember that we are not only a body, but a soul. Being a human is sometimes difficult, but if we remember that we have a soul that would never die, we will feel less afraid of what life brings us, we will just do our best to live and enjoy our ups and even the downs. 

Whatever you might have experienced in the past is now just memories, but those memories can help you levitate and most important not forget that you are capable to live a better life by learning from your past mistakes and for those good times you have been experienced will help you feel less sad about what you might go through right now. 

And mostly, never forget to have a good time with your friends and family, or just make new friends to help you expand your awareness. You never know who will bring to you the missing piece of a puzzle you have been puzzled about. Make time to spend with yourself in quiet moments and reminisce or just relax and feel your whole being. When you are alone, you can be whoever you want and no one can make you be anything you don't want. When I feel tired or just bored, I lie down in my bed and just completely relax and feel my whole body pulsating. In that moment I'm not anything to anyone, but just me, the soul.

When we drop everything that shackle us down, we feel less heavy, we become lighter, we can breathe and our movements become easier. What shackles us down might be our job, our family our friends and so on, but when we are entirely alone, we won't feel the burden of the world. But what shackles us down the most is our thoughts, that's why we have to tame it. Our mind is a playground to manifest our reality, so whatever we think will manifest in our lives. First of, you have to find a way to turn it off. The effective way is to meditate, to befriend our thoughts and let it slide and flow freely from one end to another, don't hold onto it, just let it flow. When we have cleared our thoughts, we become more wiser and more free. It's a process, an ongoing process that you have to keep up until your thoughts have become somewhat lighter and brighter. Your thoughts link to your emotions that can be wash off by cleaning up your spiritual, mentally and emotionally closet. All you need to do is throw out those old beliefs you have about yourself, when you have achieved that bit of self realization you will feel less emotional, less anxious, less tired, less of what you might feel. 

This might not happen over the night, you might want to give it a month or two, even years, but it's never too late to begin. And remember, all this shape you to be who you are meant to be, so don't be afraid to getting to know yourself and find your true happiness within. 

I hope you will find that piece of puzzle you have been trying to find, and that your life will turn up side down for the better. Remember the laughter and smile of a child whenever you feel disheartened.

Blessings 

Miracle. 

The Way of Living In Peace And Harmony

The waiting and the longing, both are like a burden, tormenting the aching heart. Let it not be a silent rage inside your soul, but express it creatively. Do what you can, but never keep it intact in your mind. 

Bold are the one who can cry, not because of pity for themselves, but silent tears to release the sadness from the heart. To fully live is to fully experience the color of our emotions. Not everyone experience them in calmness, but who said we couldn't go on a rampage or make it dramatic? 

Your life and my life may be different from each other, but truth is we are experiencing the same feelings and emotions, only to react in a different way. Whichever way we react in is not closely important as to understand the consequence of it. And so we venture on an adventure to collect pieces of our soul that we have lost from the beginning of time. Standing still or moving on, we have the choice to choose the life we want for ourselves. Nobody is entirely right, nobody has die from being wrong. So why can we live together in peace and harmony? 

Blessings
Miracle

Accept Yourself Is To Love Yourself

After being in love for countless of times, I figured out that I have been suppressing my feelings and they have become heavy emotions that was hard to control. Every time something trigger my emotions I couldn't help but cry about it. Even though tears are remedy to release those emotions I still couldn't love myself, because I loathed the way I suppress my feelings, I hate that I couldn't express them in a positive manner since I tended to push everyone away. All I could do then was to sit alone crying in a corner and felt like I was the victim of the situations. The consequence of my action was loneliness and self loath.

After my wake-up call, and many years later I become more aware of the way I treat myself. It took me a decade to understand that loving myself wasn't about loving others the way I want them to love me. Loving myself was to actually just loving myself and not wanting for acceptance or love in return. I'm not being a narcissist, I'm reasonable, I do give love and concern when my friend and family needs me to listen to them, but I don't let them misuse my trust or kindness. Being kind is not a sign of weakness, but to respect all with the same amount of respect to myself.

I understand that when someone come to me with a problem or sadness, it's not because they want me to help them solve their problems, but to love them unconditionally and accept them for what they bring with their problems. I'm aware that they want me to love and accept their emotions no matter what feelings they might bring forth in the conversations.

I develop a strategi to help them get through their dark time by being attentive with what they have to tell me. As I help by listening I also develop a sense of detachment. I detach myself from their problem and never let it surpass my faith of letting them solve their own problems. Everyone needs to learn how to trust themselves and how to face their problems as it is their life and what they want to do is important for them to understand themselves better. What they need isn't a problem solver, but compassion and kindness from their fellow humanity.

I do deem myself as a lover, a friend, a family for those who come in contact with me. Because being a family for someone who needs my time is something humanity needs right now at this particular time, but I don't mean that I will give away my time if someone is to waste it. Even though I don't judge people for what they do and say, but I do care for how they treat me, because I can't afford to loose my self-respect by letting them toy with me by being careless of how they treat me. I am after all  a human being as well, I do have my ups and downs, but I'm better at handle my emotions and feelings now than before. I can say that I love myself more than I use to.

So how do you love yourself? First we have to look into the way we love other, what kind of love do you want for yourself, is how you love yourself and that's how you will love other. Love can range from unconditional to conditional. The type of love I want for myself is unconditional, it means that I want the one I love to give me the freedom of being myself and let me express my feelings without being judge. Unconditional love is rare and most difficult to attain since we are programmed to think that if someone love us, they have to meet up with our expectations. While unconditional love is more unexpected. Unconditional love is to give without asking, wanting and expecting for it to be returned. Unconditional love is to be selfless, while attaining the desire to be loved back with the same amount without being disappointed. What I mean is the desire to be loved back is also important while loving someone, but that desire is not negative, because in this world, self-love has been something very rare which we don't experience in another human being. So to love someone we must love ourselves.

While we desire that love to meet up with our expectations we have to detach ourselves from the petty desire of being love back, and that's how divine love is in action. That's were unconditional love come into play. Second, loving ourselves, is to love our emotions, our being, our negatives side as our positive one. Loving ourselves is to love our way of being a human being with flaws and mistakes. We have to love ourselves without judging the way we are. It could be difficult if we don't forget what we have been taught in our childhood. That love must be earned by doing good deeds, running errands and behave in a certain way. Our parents taught us to be obedient, to listen to their requests and sometimes even punish us if we don't do as they said or give them what they needed, no matte what it was, sometimes we felt that it was never enough no matter how much we tried to please them and from then our love has been restricted and twisted, so when we meet someone we love, we apply the same rules. In our subconscious we still give the people we love an ultimatum, they have to meet up with our standar even though we accidentally love them without being conscious about it. After awhile we might unconsciously love them because they behave in a certain way, but when they don't meet up with up with our standar, we become angry, sad, depress and agitated. We loose our natural state of love, and that is to love unconditionally. We might choke them with our emotions and in the end if things go bad, they even run away from us because they feel they lost their freedom or couldn't handle the intense atmosphere. They might even feel that we have changed; we wasn't the same person they first met and fell in love with.

What I want you to understand is that self-love is the only love you can give yourself so you won't feel unloved once someone doesn't behave the way they use to or how you want them to behave. Self-love is the only real love you can give yourself so you won't suffer from a heartbreak, even though is saddening to loose someone. I remember this quote that fit perfectly in this post; You have to love yourself because no amount of love from others is sufficient to fill the yearning that your soul requires from you.

Self-love and detachment from the person you love is the best remedy to not loose your self-respect or self-love, because once you detach from the person you love you won't feel the lost when things doesn't stick together. If you can't detach yourself from the one you love, then try at least to detach yourself from the situations, maybe an argument or something like being right. Whatever you choose, I hope you will find that kind of love that you want to be efficient in your life. And most important, accept yourself for who you are, that's the true love you can give yourself and everyone else.

Blessings
Mircale