"Never forget the three powerful resources you always have available to you: love, prayer and forgiveness."
- H. Jackson Brown, Jr.
First let me say that I'm blessed. I'm blessed with an open and accepting family and good caring friends who stand by my side. Second, I think I'm better than I think I am.
Even though I have been through lots of dramas in my life and various happenings I still stand tall on my two feet. Life is treating me better now that I've gained the power to discern between right and wrong and how to deal with people that cross my path. I realize that life has always treated me well, I was born to believed that it wasn't so, but I have changed my perception and how I think.
Some people that aren't so familiar with how I am used to fear what I'm telling them. The truth is, I carry a lot of secrets. A dark hollow past that I couldn't shrugged it off. Because it is a part of me. It made me to who I am now in the present. Sometimes it's easy to use it as an excuse to not participate in the social events when I think life is full of challenges, but I have grown tired of parties and being around with lots of people make me feel stuffed. It simply drained me for energies. But I know that I can deal with a large group of people now and then, because I do think that it's a positive challenge. Someday I might stand on a scene talking to young people whose lives depends on other to feel happy and loved. I really want to tell them to love themselves more, because that it's the point in living. Loving themselves and change their perception of themselves and of others.
You see, life happens to us, we live not to do things to get acknowledge for who we are trying to be, but to be acknowledge because we exist. Young people should know that they are worth more than they have learned to believe. So more worthy of love and acceptance. They're not born to earned that, they are born to be loved and to love. If we just taught them how to appreciate what they have more than what they would get, then I think they will be grateful for having a life. Life is so precious. We tends to forget that because we are living in a hectic world. Everyone needs to get to work, worrying that they might not have enough of money to buy things, things that they think would satisfy them, but if they just know that they are rich because they are granted a life they wouldn't having so much worries about how to feed themselves.
I'm aware of the fact that large scale of people in other countries couldn't feed themselves and therefore you might think that maybe having a life for them isn't as fortunate as us, but even so, their lives are precious. But I'm talking to you, who at least have the access to internet and read what I'm writing right now. You are more wealthy than you think you are. So much blessed as any others humans in this world. Wouldn't you take time to count your blessing? Feeling grateful that you have a life? A chance to change yourself or more better; change someone else's life. You count, you make a difference. You're so worthy.
Forget about your past, learn from it and let it go, release your negative emotions and tend to your inner child, I bet it needs a lot of love from you.
I have learned so much by seeking for the truth. I have always been searching for the truth, and I found it, (and I lost it, but at least I know what the truth really is.) The truth is, there's no truth less the truth we are perceiving. Life is truth, you are the truth, not anyone have the same truth, so what? Can't we learn to respect each other view point on how things are? Why do we waste time in arguing, we can discuss, because its give us the chance to understand each other more, but we can't discuss forever of how to living a peaceful life. To live a peaceful life is to act out how we think that would be. We extend kindness when we act in peace and love. We treat people with respect and let them be who they really are. We don't have to change them, because we can't, we can only change ourselves and that would be enough, because people will be affect by us. They will learn how to change themselves if that is what they wish to do.
We tends to judge what we don't understand, but that in itself is innocence, because of our lack of understanding have made us fearful for the unknown. We all have the heart to forgive such behavior because we are made in the same image as God, and God is forgiving. So forgive yourself for judging, and do forgive people who judge you. They don't know you as you yourself know who you really is. No one know who other is, because that's a understanding only for those who really know who they are.
I've made peace with my past and I am less judgemental against myself. Even though I still experience fear of unworthiness. But I affirm to myself that I am good enough and that I love myself as I am.
It was a long process, but it was worth the hour spend on reading books that nurture my soul. When you are in to seek the truth, freedom and love, you will eventually find it. It could take some times before you get to where you want to be, but that is worth it, because you be so much at ease with yourself eventually. So don't be afraid to ask for help, especially God. You can always ask Him for help. Prayers makes wonder in your life. How do I know it? Because I asked God for help. I was nearly on my knees and in a position for praying. I prayed to Him and asked for assistance, and it came. Rushing through the night, when stars are above me. He send me angels in disguise of human beings. I saw the light at the end of the tunnel. I changed by their affection.
I'm lost in love, and it's such a wonder to be here. I will never want to leave this place. A place so full of forgiveness and love. I am a child of God, and He forgave me for what I have been through, and love me for who I am.
