Heart

Heart

Beating,

I'm alive

But dead inside. 

Heart

Cramped up

Pain

Exploded 

In my chest. 

Heart,

Shrinked

Left vacant

No one is there

Heart

Someone

Please 

Fill it.  

Who Will?

I thought the world would end on christmas, but I was wrong. The day still goes on without a single care of what we might think of it. And no matter what I do, time just wont seems to stop. We - I’m still here. Living this unforfilling life. I bet the teacher don’t even care that I quit classes, what about my classmates? I guess they don’t even recognize me being their classmate at all. Honestly, I don’t seems to care anymore. I wouldn’t mind living or keep going with my life. I’m just like the rest of the people continuing on living like nothing happened. I still have to take injections, still have to wake up, eat, sleep and do my chores like I used to. My search for the truth slowly die out and I don’t even care for the answer anymore. I just want to live a peaceful life. Not just that, but I wish I wasn’t such a coward. A coward that doesn’t give a damn about how my life is going to be like. A coward that doesn’t make a change for myself or not giving enough effort to be a better human. I guess, I’m just being cynic about life and its contains. I just want it all to stop, just stop for a moment so I can catch my breath. I wonder if there’s someone out there who is waiting for me to walk by them, and make it all go away with a single touch. Yes, just a touch that would melt my heart and heat up the frost that lies in there. 

Time is so cruel when it’s slowly ticking away when I want it to move faster, and it’s playing a trick on me, when I want it to slow down it’s moving faster. It doesn’t co-operate with me at all, that just makes it harder and frustrating - unbearable. But still, I have to continue relying on it to keep me going. I wonder who is out there. Who is waiting. Watching and admiring me. Who will?